i am now the companion to a homocidal 7 year old. i want tony back. tony didnt try to put pushpins through my wrist or strangle me with his gimp project.

i need to learn how to be more spontaneous.

I dig my toes into the sand.
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds strewn across a blue blanket.
I lean against the wind, pretend that i am weightless and in this moment i am happy.

For the past week or so and for another 2 weeks I am the "buddy" to an amazing boy, Tony, who suffers from asbergers disease which is a form of autism. It has been ( Read more... )

i am invisible simply because others refuse to see me.

how can you smile with all those tears in your eyes?

give me a kiss...

5 days until i go down under... (hello australian boys...)

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Tomorrow I turn 17.

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A.P. Psych...

LOL.

enough said.

New York was great, Avenue Q was absolutley amazing, I loved it*

I love my lindsay. thank god i have her. "you need to stand up to your sister miss, if you like this perfume tell her you want it" "amelia, i like this perfume" "then get it lu" "i dont want it" haha okay well it went kind of like that and was 30 times funnier, but you know.

i dont ( Read more... )

I am trying to figure out what is best for me right now. what i want. i havnt got a clue, but im trying.

ultimately, no matter what my decision is, it will be selfish. i hate that. but what can i do?

i hate change

and lies

and jealousy.

i hate missing you

wondering who you are anymore

or what you want your life to be.

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