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It has... been a while since I posted. ^^; Honestly, I haven't had all that much to post about, as I haven't gotten anything done. But an overview:
-Still working at the library a couple hours a week. Now that they've invited me to a Thanksgiving party, I feel a lot more confident in asking them at some point to give me a reference. It's only a couple hours a week, but I work my ass off those two hours...
...Which makes it hard to get a word in edgewise. For one thing, it's a library, so there's not a whole lot of conversation going on to begin with. Second, I still have some difficulty with figuring out how to start a conversation myself, and having a task to do multiplies that problem: I tend to focus on getting a job done as quickly and as well as possible, somewhat neurotically, and so I don't talk much unless somebody asks/tells me something (in which circumstance I respond readily). Third, when someone does start a conversation, it is invariably on some sort of library business I know nothing about, so it's a bit hard to jump in. And last week, I was in the shelves all day, and there wasn't much point in starting a conversation with the books. Which didn't stop me, if you count "Oh for frak's sweet sake" upon discovering that there was no room whatsoever to stuff another book in the shelf unless I started transferring books over from six shelves away can be counted as conversation. I feel like I should be talking to people and being friendly and whatnot, but one day a week, it's hard...
-One of our cats is dead. I am sad about this, don't get me wrong, but to be brutally oest, those cats are fighting against Darwin every second anyway. They insist upon living outside but have no facility for it whatsoever. Out only warning was that our cat's eye started looking strange; he promptly disappeared before we could take him to the vet. *sigh* Oh, and the other one has fleas, despite the flea treatments we give him. He is a giant bucket of fluff, so I guess it's somewhat understandable.
-My dad had an appendectomy. He's still recovering; he can get up and go out and walk around now without complaining too much, but it'll be a while before he can properly get back to work. Which is fun, because a) he's not much fun when he's in any sort of pain and b) being around him for too long at a time tends to drive me a bit batty. I love the man, but he can get pretty damn childish when he's bored. And he has the worst taste in television. Left to his own devices, he will flip around and around and around, rarely staying on anything longer than it takes to reach a commercial break, unless of course he finds something truly atrocious on the movie channels. Ever seen "The Shadow"? With Alec Baldwin? That was one of the better ones.
-I have not been getting any writing done whatsoever and I can't stand it. Maybe just writing this entry will help.
-YAY OBAMA! Yay Florida voting Obama! Damn the crap-ass way Florida went on practically everything else on the ballot! Seriously. "Hey, guys, how about we let counties tax y'all to support community colleges? I mean, not just a flat thing, they'll have to put it in front of you for your vote first, and it'll expire after a couple years unless YOU vote it yet again." "WTF?! HELL NO!" How in the living crap did THAT happen??
-I joined an online forum, and I'm actually participating. I am so glad I'm a little more secure than I used to be. At sixteen, I was practically scared of my shadow, to be honest. But now I'm coming back, driving a car (when I can-- my mom's still pretty insecure, sad to say), talking to people on the internet, bitching about the Tenth Doctor and provoking actual conversation and agreement-- after years of trying, I'm actually less scared than I used to be, and it's fantastic. I'm not as social as I need or want to be, in the real world especially, but I think I'm halfway there, and it's really quite incredible to realize that.
Hopefully I'll get some actual writing done at some point, which I can then post here.
Oh, and YAY OBAMA! I don't harbor the delusion that he's the second coming, but I think he can do great things for our country, and he certainly can't do worse than some other people I could mention. ;D
-Still working at the library a couple hours a week. Now that they've invited me to a Thanksgiving party, I feel a lot more confident in asking them at some point to give me a reference. It's only a couple hours a week, but I work my ass off those two hours...
...Which makes it hard to get a word in edgewise. For one thing, it's a library, so there's not a whole lot of conversation going on to begin with. Second, I still have some difficulty with figuring out how to start a conversation myself, and having a task to do multiplies that problem: I tend to focus on getting a job done as quickly and as well as possible, somewhat neurotically, and so I don't talk much unless somebody asks/tells me something (in which circumstance I respond readily). Third, when someone does start a conversation, it is invariably on some sort of library business I know nothing about, so it's a bit hard to jump in. And last week, I was in the shelves all day, and there wasn't much point in starting a conversation with the books. Which didn't stop me, if you count "Oh for frak's sweet sake" upon discovering that there was no room whatsoever to stuff another book in the shelf unless I started transferring books over from six shelves away can be counted as conversation. I feel like I should be talking to people and being friendly and whatnot, but one day a week, it's hard...
-One of our cats is dead. I am sad about this, don't get me wrong, but to be brutally oest, those cats are fighting against Darwin every second anyway. They insist upon living outside but have no facility for it whatsoever. Out only warning was that our cat's eye started looking strange; he promptly disappeared before we could take him to the vet. *sigh* Oh, and the other one has fleas, despite the flea treatments we give him. He is a giant bucket of fluff, so I guess it's somewhat understandable.
-My dad had an appendectomy. He's still recovering; he can get up and go out and walk around now without complaining too much, but it'll be a while before he can properly get back to work. Which is fun, because a) he's not much fun when he's in any sort of pain and b) being around him for too long at a time tends to drive me a bit batty. I love the man, but he can get pretty damn childish when he's bored. And he has the worst taste in television. Left to his own devices, he will flip around and around and around, rarely staying on anything longer than it takes to reach a commercial break, unless of course he finds something truly atrocious on the movie channels. Ever seen "The Shadow"? With Alec Baldwin? That was one of the better ones.
-I have not been getting any writing done whatsoever and I can't stand it. Maybe just writing this entry will help.
-YAY OBAMA! Yay Florida voting Obama! Damn the crap-ass way Florida went on practically everything else on the ballot! Seriously. "Hey, guys, how about we let counties tax y'all to support community colleges? I mean, not just a flat thing, they'll have to put it in front of you for your vote first, and it'll expire after a couple years unless YOU vote it yet again." "WTF?! HELL NO!" How in the living crap did THAT happen??
-I joined an online forum, and I'm actually participating. I am so glad I'm a little more secure than I used to be. At sixteen, I was practically scared of my shadow, to be honest. But now I'm coming back, driving a car (when I can-- my mom's still pretty insecure, sad to say), talking to people on the internet, bitching about the Tenth Doctor and provoking actual conversation and agreement-- after years of trying, I'm actually less scared than I used to be, and it's fantastic. I'm not as social as I need or want to be, in the real world especially, but I think I'm halfway there, and it's really quite incredible to realize that.
Hopefully I'll get some actual writing done at some point, which I can then post here.
Oh, and YAY OBAMA! I don't harbor the delusion that he's the second coming, but I think he can do great things for our country, and he certainly can't do worse than some other people I could mention. ;D