Too Much Of Anything Is Too Much?

[americanaffair]

This is taken from a much longer, far more personal essay that I wrote for my own use. It was intended to help with writers block, but as luck would have it, I stumbled upon something a little bigger than that. It's not a particularly wonderful thing to read, but I'm wondering if anyone still looks at this journal anymore, and if they would hear me

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[beckers95]

Okay, I'm hoping I can give you the answers I think you're looking for. I'm sorry you feel this way, I really am, I've never gotten the chance to talk to you personally, but AmericanAffair is one of the few author names I remember, and it's one of the only names I can put to writing aswell, so I'm hoping that counts for something, right

[americanaffair]

I have purposely ignored this for almost a week because this might be one of the most wonderful responses I've ever had to anything in the general vicinity of ever. Thank you, for just taking the time to read this and moreso for responding.
I take that offer to heart, but I will pre-warn you that I have this tendency to fill silence with the sound of my own voice or my words if I get nervous or excited or any other weird emotional melting pot.
That does help, but it makes me feel sad that you don't think people care about your updates. Lurkers exist! Proud and prominent. I write things that I know... things that I'll take the time to study and understand. I guess, just because its porn, doesn't mean I don't take the time to understand the fetish and understand why the character wants it and understanding that stuff seems to make it become a part of me instead of just an expansion.
I just. Thank you. Thank you, thank you, thank you. xx