Evanescence' Chapter 3
Adam’s POV.
“Because…I’m not human…I’m a vampire…” He said that, looking away from me. Then he heaved a big sigh. As if he was really telling the truth. As if!
“What?” I asked, blinking hard, hoping that it would make some sense. He cant be serious, right?
He sighed again, ignoring me…like he couldn’t repeat that again.
“No, Tommy look at me.” I held his chin and turned his pretty face towards mine. He turned his face towards mine (simply because I was manhandling him), but still looked away. “Look at me. Please.” I whispered, and slowly his brown eyes looked into mine. Those eyes…they had this inhuman attraction. But they were hiding…something, like they were ashamed of what he just said. “Look…tell me…I promise I wont go anywh-“
“I’m a vampire, you idiot. You happy now? Now run away from me, before I bite you, literally.” He said, irritated.
I blankly stared at him, as if he was speaking in Urdu or Swahili or something like that. Well, yeah! It did sound like Persian! He said..he said…he’s a vam…how can he? I don’t-
“Get away from me, bitch!” He said, angrier now. That’s when I noticed- that his eyes were turning red with anger…
I swallowed.
“I know you’ve suffered.
But I don’t want you to hide.”
This explained things you know? Why his body was always cold, and so pale. Why he flinched away from sunlight, even in his sleep, whenever I opened the curtains. Why I found him the way I did, in ice. But…this couldn’t be…right?
“What?” Tommy stared at me.
“Are you sure?” I said. I mean…duh! I don’t believe him! How can I? Can you? “You’re not kidding?”
“Trust me.” He whispered huskily, and then he showed me…His fangs, he bared his fangs!!
“I…You…You…” I couldn’t get a single coherent sentence out of my mouth. He..he’s a- He is a vampire!
OMG!!! I don’t believe it! I was sitting just a few inches away from a real vampire! A vampire with fangs! A vampire whose eye color changes! A vampire! Omgeeeee! My mind squealed…or maybe I did it…out loud…oh!
And while my mind squealed like a teenage girl seeing her favorite pop star, I hugged him. I embraced him hard. At first his body tensed, but then it slowly relaxed, like he was enjoying it…like his body was feeling good. And I like that too. You remember my problem regarding the hotness all the time? Well, his cool body was really soothing. Like a cold glass of water from the mountains on a hot sunny day, quenching my thirst and healing my heated body.
But then he pushed me away.
“What are you doing?” He glared at me.
“Um…hugging you?” I simply answered. What? Don’t tell me he didn’t get that.
“Uh! No! Why are you hugging me? Dude? Like…shouldn’t you be running away from me?” He asked, hiding his fangs. Oh! That just makes me super excited. I mean, c’mon! He got fangs!! I’m soooo envious.
“No…I uh…always wanted to meet a vampire, you know?” I told him, though this was embarrassing. I mean, duh! Who believes in them?
“Oh.” Tommy gave a confused nod, as if this made a sense. “Oh.” He said again. “Cool.” He said, still trying to get that I didn’t scream a few octaves too high, with all my hair standing, or my eyeballs popping like all those Disney cartoons, or jump three feet into the air, or run away like I was fucking scared of Count Dracula. In fact, I’ve always kinda fancied vamps you know?
I gave him a side hug, and didn’t get go. “So…does this mean I can sleep with you?” I said, mischievously. I saw him smile for a second. Like he was relieved, like we wasn’t tensed.
“Get away Adam!” He laughed and pushed me away. Woah! He really pushed me hard. Hmmm, so vampiric strength in this feeble kid? But I am not that easy. I held his tightly by his waist, and now that I think of it, maybe I shouldn’t have done that. ‘Cause, then he push actually misbalanced me, and I fell off the edge of the bed. Like literally. And I dragged him down with him.
Damn! That was so scary for a second, that my whole life flashed before my eyes before a closed them. And after the huge impact( which hurt, really) I opened them and stared into his eyes. They weren’t red anymore, but brown again…Just this hint of lusted purple.
And they were like, sucking me in. So hard to breathe. His body on mine, and legs entangled. I still kinda had my arms around him, which I had tightened when I was falling. And so, here we were, staring deep into each other’s eyes and bodies entangled into each other like they were missing puzzle pieces. And he was so gorgeous, so fucking gorgeous, that I felt my heart beating harder and harder, and then I was having this tiny problem in my pants, which was not going to be tiny any more, I could tell.
“Why wont you…run away?” He whispered, eyes really innocent and searching for an answer.
“Because I promised myself that I wont leave you alone…” I smiled, which was very difficult from this position, I’m telling you.
But then, as my face got hotter (and redder, I know, I know) I saw faint blush lined on his cheeks too.
Aww! And the imaginary audience in my mind began squealing like fan girls. Kiss him! They screamed, and so did my heart. I mean, he was beautiful, and those cherry red lips, and smooth, pale skin and eyes…His shining eyes…And I almost kissed him.
But then he pulled up, and stood up slowly, sitting on the bed, leaving me in that position.
“Uhm…” He looked away, embarrassed. Oh, no! I wont let this get awkward between us. I cant!
“What? You didn’t let me sleep on the bed. You got problems with the floor too?” I pretended that I was offended. But my heart was still leaping, scared that he might leave any second. I cant…I wont be able to handle that…Broken…
“Its cold and loveless.
I wont let you be denied.”
After wishing him goodbye properly, and switched off the lights and left the room. But I decided to wait by the door, just in case, he decided to leave me. I wont be able to handle that. I brought my blanket and pillow from the couch and spread them nicely over the thick carpet by the door. I sat down. Yep, comfortable and warm alright. And really, I didn’t have to worry about catching a cold. I never did.
Sleeping here is not that bad. Anyways I couldn’t afford losing him.
I leaned against the door, eyes really drowsy now. This was the third day for me without any proper sleep, and now I was feeling really sleepy now. Maybe because this nurse-business was really getting my nerves. Or maybe because my excitement had used up all my energy. But something…was there, like sending energy into my cells as soon as I touched the wooden body of the door…Maybe it’s the blankets. Or pillow…I need to sleep…
Or maybe because I was losing my heart to a young and pretty vampire.
Which was not good.
“Soothing.
I’ll make you feel pure.”
I woke up in the morning. Something like six or seven. Not that I cared. I’m on vacation, remember? But there was no noise from Tommy’s room. My room I mean…Our room?
Whatever. I got up, stretching. Uff, I wont ever sleep like this again. My whole body was stiff. But I was scared. Tommy…didn’t leave me, right?
I slowly opened the door. And peeped in. The bed was empty.
“Trust me…
You can be sure.”
But then I felt something on my legs. As the door opened outside, a weight leaned onto my legs. I saw blonde hair wrapped up in blankets and a pillow lying near him.
Tommy? What the?
I picked him up. Easy really. And he looked so adorable. Sleeping like that, all peacefully.
I walked over to his (my/our?) bed and gently placed him down. Then I put the pillow and blankets over him, and turned to leave.
He caught my hand.
“Why’d you put me up here?” He said, voice all broken and sleepy.
“’Cause your body would hurt like that.” I said gently.
“Don’t leave me…” He said, still sleepy and tired. This was déjà vu. The first time he was hanging between consciousness and unconsciousness, when I brought him here.
I held onto his hands with both of mine. “I wont.” He had his eyes closed, but a faint smile blew over his face. I sat down on the bed, still holding his hands. You scared me baby.
“I want to reconcile the violence in your heart.”
“Hey Tommy?” I whispered, feeling sleepy again.
“Hmmm?” He hummed, almost sleeping again.
“Why were you at the door?” Gawd! It was hard to keep my eyes open.
“I was sleeping there, so ….that I could listen…. to you, and …and hold you down if…you tried to leave…me…” He said in his sleep.
“I want to recognize, your beauty is not just a mask.”
I smiled as I fell asleep again.
I had this dream. It was more like a flashback of whatever happened.
Moonlit darkness, and I’m moving in a certain direction. Like someone’s pulling me. Calling me.
And then, I don’t remember much, but I walked a lot, over snowy paths, through withered trees, and even crossed a small river, frozen with the season. Then, I don’t know, I entered the forest, all leaves shed down. And I was moving ahead, only the moon as my partner. And I turned round a few tress, and saw him.
“I want to exorcise the demons from your past.”
The tress there were still green and fresh, as if time and season meant nothing. Walking into the tress, I saw him, his body, embedded in a huge chunk of ice. So cold, so lifeless. Pale and pained.
But eyes closed, as if he was having nightmares. I touched the ice, and as soon as I did that, felt this shock. Like something was freed. And then I felt him. Like he couldn’t hold on much longer.
Panicking, I hit the ice, trying to break through. With my hands, wood, stones, whatever I got…But nothing worked. As if, as if, it was all magical, like it happens in movies. Like, it wasn’t physical strength required, but some emotional connection?
And then I felt that…I should kiss him. And I did, placing my hands on the ice close to his face.
I felt the energy, the winds blowing, the stars twinkling…And the ice shattering…And the body falling limp on me.
I picked him up.
“I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.”
I woke up when I felt the pillow I was holding, wiggle. Strange, pillows don’t wiggle like that! I opened my eyes, and looked straight into the seductive brown eyes of a vampire.
“What the-?”
We flung apart from each other, but maybe I was too forceful, I thought, as I landed on the carpeted floor.
“Ow.”
“Woah!” Tommy looked down at me from up the bed. How come he didnt fall? Maybe he used his supernatural powers, huh? So not fair!
“Morning!” I looked at him.
“Mor- Dude, what do you mean, morning? Why were you holding onto me?” He said, irritated. Gawd! I loved teasing him.
“What? What the hell? I wasn’t! You were holding onto me!!” I said, hiding my smirk. Hey! I’m not lying…I mean, the “you were holding me” part. I swear!
“What are you do-“ He stopped, like he just remembered why was I there, “…oh well…nevermmind.” He said, angry, and silent.
I just gave him a big chesire cat smile.
“Breakfast?”
“You trick your lovers, that you’re wicked and divine.
You maybe sinner, but your innocence is mine.”
“…What?” Tommy asked and I looked away.
Tommy glared at me, while chewing onto the breakfast (Like it was made of rubber! *Sob* I spent about an hour over it!). All I did was try to hide a smirk.
“Wh-at?” I couldn’t help stare at him.
“Um…dude?” He waved his hands in front of my face as I inched closer to him each second, staring like I was a fish, with no eye lids, just staring. I leaned back into my place.
“So…you’re a vamp? Like really, really? A vamp? You’re not fucking with me?” I said, all in one breath. Getting Tommy to talk was one hard mother fucking job I tell you.
“Um. Yeah.” He said, ignoring me, and finding the “rubber” breakfast really interesting.
“So, you drink blood? With your fangs? Like, from people’s necks? As in biting them??” Again in one breath.
“Um. Yeah.”
“So…You are a creature of the night? Like darkness, shadows, moonlight, power, blood, lust and all?”
“Um. Yeah.”
“And you’re eyes? They change colors? Like when you have different feelings…Like hunger?”
“Um. Yeah.”
“Stop answering like that! Is that all in your vocabulary?”
“Um. Yeah.” I know he simply said this to irritate me, but babe, this aint working!
“ So…You burn in sunlight?”
“Um. Yea-No no! I don’t!” He looked upto me.
“Why? …So do you spa-“ He didn’t let me complete.
“-No dude! I do NOT sparkle! How could you even think this?” I looked away just in time. What? I thought…just maybe… It’s about the glitters you know?
“Then the sun-?” I was still looking away. No way in hell would I want to look into his killer eyes.
“Its…not killing me…Neither do I sparkle, thank you very much! I just…I’m allergic to it…You know, weakness and tired and exhausted all of a sudden? Like really very weak?”
I nodded, looking at him as he stared into space, remembering.
So cute…and so innocent… How did he end up in the ice, trembling and so dead?
“You maybe a sinner,
But your innocence is mine.”
“So…what about garlics and holy water and silver and crosses?”
In reply, he just held out his pendent, a silver cross. How could I miss that? All myths I suppose then.
“Oh.”But this is so cool! I mean, I’m talking to an actual vampire! I cant express how giddy I feel. (And am surprised that I aint acting like that giddy.)
“Do you-?” He didn’t let me complete my next question.
“Sorry, I don’t turn into a bat.”
“How do you- No…No! Don’t tell me! You read minds, doncha?!” I panicked. No! That would be so not cool!
“Uhm…” He looked away. I went up to him and grabbed his shoulders.
“Tell me!” I shook him.
“No. Not until I’m completely connected to the other person. But he or she had got to be my mate. Emotionally and physically marked. If you get what I mean. But…” He looked away again.
“What?” I said, few octaves too high. He looked into my eyes.
“Since I’m weak. The only way to read minds without the mate-marking, is either when I concentrate really hard…Or when the other person is emotionally very high. And we are standing really close.”
I looked away. Oh, emotionally high. Close. I get that now…But what about the first time? When I was in my sleep and he was unconscious? I was here in my bed, and he was out there, in the ice? We were not close.
“Not close.” He repeated, breathing on my lips. That’s when I noticed I was still holding him. Close. And then I don’t know, a wave of erotic thoughts swept over me. Like straddling him…and kissing him hard, those soft lips and snow white skin. What is this? He got some lusty hormone? Pheromone?
“Please me, show me how its done.
Tease me, you are the one.”
“Uhm…Adam?”
“Yeah…?”
“Do you realize we are still sitting very close? …And that you’re still emotionally high?”
My eyes widened as I realized what was he talking about. Blushing hard, I got back to my place. Lets just ignore the blushes on our faces, what say? And the way his eyes turned big when he heard my mind. And he blushed red.
I don’t believe I fucking, fucking embarrassed myself like that.
“I want to reconcile the violence in your heart.
I want to recognize, your beauty is not just a mask.”
“Oh well…Lets…uh, talk about uh…the breakfast…Uhm…” I said, defenseless.
“Oh, yeah! That’s good…Like in…seriously good,” He smiled uncomfortably.
After a few minutes of the killer silence, I don’t know, suddenly, I felt something, and held onto his hands.
“Hey, Tommy? You know…You can tell me anything. Anytime you want…I wont force you. I’ll be waiting for you, you know? I just…uh…want to tell you that, I’m there for you, always. You can be sure, trust me…Just..dont give up on me, kay?”
He looked into my eyes, and instead of asking me why so suddenly this topic, or staring at me like I was a llama, he nodded, and gave a faint smile.
I knew I’d do anything for that smile.
“I want to exorcise the demons from your past.
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart.”