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'Till I'm Me Again
p: KaiSoo; side BaekYeol and HunHan; maybe TaoRis
genre: angst (?!) but not really
wc: 5,600+
Summary: A story where Jongin learns how to follow Kyungsoo's steps.
a/n#1: when you get to (ii) i suggest you click the link so that you'd know what's happening. i tried my best to write about the steps, but the video will be more of a help. ^^
(viii)
The room is filled with body heat despite the perfectly fine air conditioner. The mirror by the walls reflects two young men who are currently sitting side by side, not really touching because the heat only intensifies. Sehun and Jongin had been practicing for hours now. It was expected of them to have the perfect timing and rhythm but one of them continues to fail.
“I don’t need this from you right now Sehun.”
“Then what do you want from me?”
“I want you to teach me how the choreography works, why I keep missing the steps, why…”
“No Jongin. What you need is to find the soul of your dance.”
(iv)
Kyungsoo enters the apartment and immediately senses the distress that the room is emanating. He sees Sehun on the couch looking like he’s in one of his tantrums again.
“You okay Sehun?” Kyungsoo makes his way in their small living room, picking up some of the discarded stuff on the floor.
“Yeah. Aside from the fact that Jongin finished our supply of instant noodles. Again.” He grumbles while continuing to stare at the television set he’s not really watching.
Kyungsoo thinks that the topic is too shallow to even be mad about. But when it comes to the maknaes having their share of food, nothing is too shallow.
“Have you tried asking him nicely? Like telling him he finished the last supplies and it’s your turn to finish it now?” Kyungsoo hates himself for the lame excuse of a joke he just delivered.
“I did hyung! He was saying something like he deserves it. What, don’t I deserve the noodles as well hyung? Huh?!” If Junmyeon was in right now, he might have been running towards the pair and asking endlessly as to why his maknae (baby as he always calls Sehun) is shouting and sounding as if he was about to cry.
“Maknae. It’s just noodles.” Kyungsoo answers with a sigh. “And if it makes you feel any better, it’s full of preservatives and unhealthy stuff; therefore if Jongin is wolfing all of our instant noodles, he’s doing nothing but fast forwarding his time meeting with the Netherworld Emissary.” He continues without pausing when he saw Sehun was about to start with his rant again. “But if that doesn’t concern you and still want those instant noodles, here, I bought some on my way back. I know we were running low on those. I’d even make them for you if you want.” The older smiles at Sehun, his motherly side is showing once again. Sehun’s mood was immediately lifted when the offer was made. Who was he to turn down a ready to eat food right?
Kyungsoo finds Jongin in their shared room, earphones plugged in with a book in hand.
“You made Sehun upset.” He starts knowing that the other can hear him well.
“When was Sehun not upset without Luhan hyung around?” Kyungsoo sees how Jongin just shrugged his answer. He doesn’t like how the younger seems to be brushing off his mistake.
“He was sure as bright as sunshine when I made him that instant noodle I just bought.” The older answers with the nonchalant tone the younger did as he faces the wardrobe and changing to more comfortable clothes. He knows his taunting worked when he heard a book being discarded behind his back.
“How come you don’t make me noodles when I ask you?!” Kyungsoo stops and slowly turns a hundred and eighty degrees to stare at Jongin. He cannot believe what he just heard.
“You ate at your heart’s content Jongin. You didn’t even consider sharing it with Sehun. And now you’re actually jealous that Sehun is eating the same food you were selfish about? What air head are you Kim Jongin?!” The angry male throws his discarded shirt at the other. He picks up a new one, quickly dressed, and then slams the door of their room. Kyungsoo hears a faint “That’s my shirt!” and looks down on what he’s wearing. Of course it’s Jongin’s.
The dinner table had been fairly the same, only lacking the spontaneous interaction between the two maknaes. Kyungsoo managed to catch how Jongin slipped an extra slice of pork to Sehun’s bowl, the latter responds with a light punch on the shoulder of the former.
Kyungsoo is glad that the two made up but he can’t shake away the feeling that something is amiss. He stares at Jongin and wishes that he was wrong.
(i)Jongin and Kyungsoo had been in love way before there was an Exo, before they debut, and a little after when they were trainees.
“Hyung, do you think we’ll still be here after five years?”
They were standing on a bridge, it’s close to midnight and they were supposed to be taking their rests but both could not pass the chance of the sparkling beauty the stars held above.
“No.” Kyungsoo answers with a straight face. Jongin was surprised, not expecting the answer. But then Kyungsoo cracks a smile and continues, “I think we won’t be here after five years Jongin. I think we’ll be standing elsewhere, somewhere higher, somewhere closer to the stars.” He reaches for Jongin’s hands, intertwining them and extending them up to the sky.
“We’ll be there together hyung.”
(v)
Kyungsoo notices the change in Jongin little by little. He notices first as he always does when it comes to Jongin.
The younger is getting more stubborn when it’s time to wake up for practices or whatever it is in their schedule, Junmyeon rationalizes that he is still young and he needs all the sleep he can get, so he lets it be. Then Jongin insists on being in the center of everything.
Of course it was somehow understood that Jongin take the center most of the time on photo shoots and in some of their dance routines. But when Jongin pushes himself in their line formation at random guestings in tv shows and appearances, Kyungsoo thinks that it is plain wrong.
He thinks that maybe, even Jongin is not aware of the change that is happening to him.
(iii)
“You must never lose yourself. It’s a crazy world out there. When all you can see are bright lights and all you can hear is your name, there are those who tend to drown in it. Don’t.”
Their debut has gone and EXO had been traveling to different countries together with other SM artists. Tonight, instead of practice, the whole group had been gathered to meet with one of their sunbae. Everyone had a hectic schedule, so the whole group cannot pass this chance to gather.
“The fans can make you feel and believe that you are a God. You’re not.”
“Exactly! We got that spot already!” Changmin peeks as he passes the corridor outside of the practice room. He winks and everybody laughs as he takes his leave.
“They will idolize you and put you in a pedestal. You have to keep grounded. That is one of the reasons you had to live, eat, practice and do everything else together. So that when you start to lose your way, you have your brothers to lead you back. Arasso?”
They discuss other things like how to handle the rabid fans and the airplane flights around the clock. It had been short but EXO treasured the encounter.
“We will be brothers no matter what. We will protect each other. Whatever happens tomorrow, in ten years, even after then, understand?” Junmyeon gathers everyone in a circle. It’s hard to put twelve bodies together in a tight circle, extending each an arm to put a hand atop the other, but they manage.
“In three” Kris leads them.
“We are one!” the group put their hearts out and absorbs the precious memory.
(vi)
Jongin hears the chants, a mixture of “Jongin!” and “Kai!” He winks and the crowd chants a little louder. He smirks the same time the cameraman focuses on him. The LCD projects the sexy signature and the crowd goes wild. Jongin breathes it in.
“Don’t you think Baekhyun hyung is losing his touch? Rather his voice for that matter. And Luhan hyung too! He’s clearly not taking care of his skin with that pimple saying hello to the whole world. Then-"
Jongin would’ve continued but Kyungsoo interjected.
“You sound like a high school girl jealous of the popular kids. You can actually pass as Regina George or one of the mean girls with the rate you’re talking. God, Jongin. You do realize that these are your brothers you’re talking about right?”
Kyungsoo leaves Jongin to think for the words he just said. Jongin continues to browse the web.
(vii)
Jongin doesn’t see what was wrong. He was his normal self but Kyungsoo is distant. He tries to hold his partner’s hand but is quickly shaken off. He settles with sitting beside the smaller man, trying to put as little space as possible between them. It seems like Kyungsoo is always mad at Jongin these past few days. He doesn’t see what was wrong until he had a fight with Tao.
“What was that Zitao?!” Jongin shouts at the panting male. Tao missed a step and in the process managed to step on the toes of Jongin. Everyone looks at them, surprised by Jongin’s outburst.
“Okay everyone! Take ten and we’ll start from the top after.” Their instructor tells them with the intention of cooling down the tension.
They thought that the little bicker is over. Jongin bumps Tao’s shoulder with his own with a force that exceeds the accidental range. Tao would’ve let it pass but Jongin was getting in his nerves and he pushes the other. “What the hell is your problem Jongin?!”
Jongin stumbles from the push but doesn’t fall. He goes back to Tao, only to stop when their noses are mere centimeters apart. “You are my problem Zitao! How could you mess up a simple routine! And you didn’t have to take me with your downfall!”
By this time, the whole group are surrounding them. Chanyeol and Sehun try to pry Jongin away from the back while Kyungsoo inserts himself between the fighting boys. Kris keeps a constant pressure on Tao’s shoulders, asking him to back away.
“Stop! Stop this before it gets worse.” Joonmyeon barks at the two with all the authority that his voice can manage.
“You go ask him to stop hyung! It will not be me that pulls this group down. Zitao can’t keep up with the routine. Maybe he doesn’t care enough about this.” Jongin doesn’t look away from Tao, intending for the words to go straight to the other.
“You’re crossing the line Kim Jongin.” It was Kris who spoke this time. His voice was calm and faces the younger, keeping Tao behind his back in the process. Tao was not struggling anymore, calmed down by the hold of the taller, then he leaves everything to Kris. Kyungsoo sees the submission, sees that Tao is ending it; he then decides to end it as well for Jongin.
“I’m sorry Tao, Kris hyung, everyone. I’ll handle him.” Kyungsoo lays a hand on Kris’ arm then proceeds to put a firm grip on Jongin’s wrist, pulling him to a different room.
“You are out of your mind Jongin! How could you say that to Tao?” Kyungsoo slams the door on the empty room.
“Why are you shouting at me? Why is it me that you’re scolding? You’re supposed to be mad at Tao.”
“And why is that Jongin?” the older folds his arm by his chest as he tries to stop his hands from shaking.
“Because I was not the one who messed up! He did!” Jongin’s voice is laced with un-guiltiness.
“We all do Jongin! If you don’t remember, I missed steps as well. We’re not perfect Jongin, we’re not Gods, and we’re bound to make some mistakes along the way. And you have no right to accuse Tao of not giving enough.” Kyungsoo can’t stop from spilling his mind now. He’s had enough of Jongin thinking that he’s higher than anyone. “Have you seen yourself lately? Have you heard yourself talk about your hyungs?! Your brothers Kim Jongin! Baekhyun had been doing his best, practicing and singing every night. Before he sleeps, in the shower, and I heard from Chanyeol that he sings even in his sleep. Luhan had been up weeks in a row to monitor himself and improve. He doesn’t sleep until he reaches the right notes and dances to the right cues. Tao is sick Jongin! Kris was about to tie him down to make him rest but the kid won’t budge, he gets up and puts one foot in front of the other. How dare you say such things about them?”
Jongin is stunned. He had never seen Kyungsoo this mad at him before. He tries to calm Kyungsoo down by reaching out to him. “Soo.”
“Don’t touch me.” The older backs away. They don’t say anything to each other, both staring and waiting for the other to do anything. In the end Kyungsoo turns around. “I hope you reflect on what you’re doing Jongin. Before you lose your brothers… or worse, yourself.”
The group finishes the routine after their break. No mishaps happened but it was as if they weren’t dancing as EXO. They were just dancing as individuals.
(ix)
Slowly, Jongin understands what his lover has said. Reflecting on his actions, he sees how he craves for more attention, for louder chants of his name, and how he criticizes his brothers.
Little by little, Jongin tries to amend with his actions. For the longest time, Jongin always had Kyungsoo by his side. But this time, the younger decided to do this on his own. He wanted to how Kyungsoo what he had learned, that he was sorry for the way he acted and how he was affected by the fame that was given to their group. The younger didn’t know how to do it, how to start, but he will try.
(x)
He starts with his fellow maknaes. Being them as youngest in the group, he had easier relationship with them. He remembered how they used to scout the streets of Seoul in the middle of the night to discover new food stalls and delicious street foods. He proposes a night out with Sehun and Tao, the Chinese had second thoughts because of their recent clash, but when Jongin mentions “free” and “food” in one sentence, the deal was sealed.
They were careful in exiting their dorms, avoiding the fans and possibly gossip makers. They threaded through routes they haven’t gone before and soon Jongin’s wallet deflated but their stomachs are full in return. None of the three wanted to go back just yet. Deciding to stay outside a little longer, they went to the little playground they frequent to when they have their night outs. Sitting atop the monkey bars was how they spent their remaining time.
“I’ve been a jerk haven’t I?” Jongin breaks the silence, and Sehun does not react knowing that the question is directed more to Tao than him.
Being a master of self-discipline and a little guidance from his gege, Zitao held no ill feelings for Jongin. He couldn’t, however, pass the chance to tease his friend a little. “What was that? I don’t think I heard you.”
“I’ve been a jerk.” This time, Jongin says it as a statement and not a question.
Zitao tries to suppress the smile that forms to his lips. “I think I’m having issues with my ears lately Jongin. Will you repeat that?” He cannot hide the smile any longer and Sehun was already shaking with laughter in between them.
“I said,” Jongin takes a deep breath, ready to shout the remaining sentence, “I have been a real jerk and I’m sorry Huang Zitao! Please forgive me.”
The other two was would have fallen by the bars by now if they didn’t possess so much balance and coordination with the wy they were shaking with laughter. Jongin had a smile on his face as well but he doesn’t get what was so funny and by now he just really wants to know what he was missing.
“Yah! I just said I’m sorry. What was so funny?”
Sehun wipes a single tear from his eye and still slightly shakes as he raises his phone. “This is what’s funny…”
Jongin was about to react that nothing was funny with Sehun’s phone, just then he hears himself shouting.
“I have been a real jerk…”
He waited for more of the statement but it seems that Sehun has cut the apology there. The voice recording started another round of laughter from the two guys. Zitao was having a hard time being coherent when he started to speak.
“That… would… make a… nice… alarm tone!” He wheezes with every word and punctuates the sentence with another raucous laughter.
“I bet the whole dorm would be awake… and they’d thought Jongin was really shouting” Sehun was more articulate with his sentence but had the same laugh in the end.
Jongin smiles and shakes his head with his friends’ stupidity. He would sometimes wonder why he’s friends with them. He comes to a conclusion that he’s kind of in line with their stupidity too if he understands both, not as if he’d admit that to them.
“Hey Zitao.” The mirth hasn’t died down yet but Jongin wants everything out of his system soon. The Chinese looks at him donning that big smile with his cat like eyes full of happiness.
“Will you extend my apology to Kris hyung as well?” He thinks it was necessary as well to apologize to Kris. When you hurt a person, you don’t just hurt one soul. It pierces through its other half. Jongin realizes this after seeing the pain in Kyungsoo’s eyes everytime he had done something against his brothers. He wasn’t able to see it before because he was blinded by his own selfishness. The moment he was able to see the look in his lover’s eyes, Jongin felt twice the pain.
“You don’t have to worry about gege. If we’re okay, he’s okay.” Zitao says with a gentler voice a still a smile on his face. He can’t miss the chance to tease more, “And one round of that recording would definitely make thing better.” You think that by now they would be over the joke. But no, Sehun and Zitao rose from their rest and laughed once again. This time, Jongin laughs with them.
They end the night taking a picture from Zitao’s phone. He renames it with “the three monkeys”.
(xi)
For the past week, the maknae of the K group had been very attentive of Baekhyun’s needs. The singer had no objections to this but it certainly makes him curious.
It started when one morning, Baekhyun was sure he was left with cold water to shower in after waking up late. He was practicing the night before and Chanyeol didn’t have the heart to wake him up because he was sleeping quite deeply. The singer was bracing himself for the cold shower but then soon relaxed as warm water hit him.
After taking the relaxing shower, Baekhyun steps out of the bathroom and passes by Jongin. The younger had a towel in his hand and Baekhyun realizes that he was not the last one to take a shower. He immediately regrets taking his time with the warm water.
“Jongin. You haven’t showered yet?”
“Uhm. Not yet hyung. Why?”
“Oh. I think I kind of enjoyed it too much and used up all the warm water. I could pre…” Baekhyun was ready to go to the kitchen to heat some water for the younger when Jongin only shakes his head.
“No need hyung. I have no problems with taking a cold shower.” The maknae smiles and Baekhyun could definitely see the sincerity in him. The bathroom door closes and Baekhyun proceeds to where Chanyeol is.
“Yeol.” Chanyeol hums in reply and turns to Baekhyun who was drying his hair with a towel. “Why didn’t Jongin took a shower yet?”
“I don’t know. Joonmyun hyung kept telling him to go shower first since he’s already awake. But then he asks hyung weird questions.”
“Weird questions?”
“Yeah. Like ‘is warm shower good for the voice’?” Chanyeol could only look at Baekhyun and shrug his shoulders.
“Huh.” Was all Baekhyun could say.
After that, Jongin takes notice of what Baekhyun drinks. After their vocal lessons, Baekhyun would grab the closest drink he could get his hands on without care. As soon as Jongin sees the drink to be ice cold and a little sweet, he snatches the drink from his hyung and replaces it with warm water.
“Here hyung! Let’s exchange!” he quickly grabs Baekhyun’s original drink and shoves his own water.
“But I wanted the…” Baekhyun could not end the complaint as Jongin was walking away and shouting his thanks for his hyung. The singer was left with drinking the warm water. This started Jongin’s side job of being Baekhyun’s personal water boy.
Then Jongin started to compliment Baekhyun’s singing. After every performance or before they turn in on their own rooms, Jongin would find time to remind Baekhyun how he was really good at singing, or how his expression looks as he sings, or how he admires his hyung’s high notes. Baekhyun believed each praises as he sees the honesty in Jongin's words. Soon, Baekhyun started to gain more confidence and performed better, if that was even possible.
The attention and care was very new of Jongin that Chanyeol started to get jealous of it, thinking that the younger had taken a liking in his boyfriend. This was a senseless notion as he knew that the maknae could not betray him. Nonetheless, Chanyeol was still jealous. Baekhyun could not hold it in any longer and he knew he had to ask Jongin about his change in treating Baekhyun soon. The singer tried to convince Chanyeol so hard that he needed to do this alone with Jongin.
Baekhyun found his chance one afternoon when almost all of the members were out to do their own separate schedules. The living room is absent of its usual noise and this is where Baekhyun catches Jongin, mindlessly lying on his stomach. He carefully slides to the sofa behind the younger before asking for his attention.
“Jongin-ah.”
Jongin was playing with his device when he heard a soft voice calling his name. He looks around, twisting his trunk in the process, and sits upright upon seeing one of his hyungs.
“Oh hyung! Do you need anything?”
Baekhyun gives him a fond smile and pats the seat beside him, asking the younger to sit beside him.
“Can I ask you something Jongin-ah?” The younger answers with a tentative nod. “Why do you suddenly care so much about hyung? Don’t get me wrong, I appreciate everything actually! It’s just that, it’s kind of new you know… and I just got curious about it.”
Jongin takes a moment to answer while Baekhyun patiently waits. The younger considers how he will be answering the singer’s question. At first, Jongin was thoughtful of Baekhyun because he wanted to make up for his mistake. But as time goes by, he sees Baekhyun’s insecurities of himself. At this, Jongin’s will to help his hyung became even stronger. He started to be mindful of him and tried to shower the singer with honest compliments.
“I… well hyung, someone once told me that you were beating yourself up with your singing. At first I did not believe it, because hyung, if I had a voice like yours, I think I would be flaunting it so bad you’d have to duct tape me!” Jongin was talking animatedly now, doing weird gestures with his hand and facing the other more with his seat in the sofa. Baekhyun could only smile more. “You really do have a beautiful voice and I could not understand why you thought you were not good enough. I wanted to make you realize that or at least help you take care of your voice.” the younger ends his animated explanation with his head bowed down.
Baekhyun was about to answer Jongin and say his thanks when his boyfriend suddenly decides to make his presence known.
“Aish. So that was it!” Chanyeol appear behind Jongin, he approaches the two on the sofa, and claps the youngest on the back. “For a moment I thought you were trying to steal my Baekhyunnie.” Chanyeol takes a seat on Baekhyun’s other side, circling an arm around his lover's waist.
"I would never hyung! Baekhyun hyung's voice is great. But we all know whose the best is for me..."
"I know, I know, okay? It was just a stupid passing thought." Chanyeol smiles his toothy grin. "I've told this little guy over here, time and time again, that his voice is as beautiful as the angels' above, but he just won't believe me!"
Baekhyun then turns to his giant of a lover and chuckles while pinching the pouty male. "Awww! Don't think too much about it Chanyeollie... I just thought that you were a little... Well, biased." The other was about to retort but Baekhyun would not let him. "You love me and we're partners. You're supposed to love my voice." The singer laughs and his boyfriend would've argued about non-biases if he was not too caught up with that melodious laugh.
"But back to you Jongin-ah." Baekhyun turns to Jongin once again. The youngest among them would've vomitted with all the cheese that's happening right before his eyes but somehow, it brings a pinch to his chest. He misses his own partner.
Baekhyun sees Jongin's almost smile, he sees the deep longing in there as well. It was not a secret between the members of how Kyungsoo is distant to Jongin lately. Especially to Baekhyun, who's been Kyungsoo's closest friend.
When Baekhyun asks for the younger's attention once again, he speaks with a soft voice and a softer smile. "Hey Jongin-ah."
Jongin breaks from his trance and looks at his hyung.
"You okay? I'm really thankful maknae. If you need anything. I can help you."
The younger shakes his head. "It's okay hyung. I was at fault and I realized it. I need to do this on my own."
I got lost and I’m looking for the right way on my own. All I need to do is to listen to the voice of my favorite lullaby. You’ll wait for me right hyung?
(xii)
Luhan is on the studio floor looking like he just came from the shower. From head to toes, he was wet not with water from the shower though. It was his body's water, sweat that is. He was in his usual routine of staying in the studio later than the rest of the members. Including in the routine would be the time consuming argument with Sehun. The younger would continue to reason that it was better to practice with someone rather than practice by yourself. But Luhan would not permit Sehun to accompany him. He would rather have the other in the dorms, taking his much needed rest.
It startles Luhan when the studio door opens and reveals one of their maknaes. When Jongin fully enters the room, Luhan thinks he knows the maknae's intentions. Jongin takes the seat beside Luhan's spot on the floor.
"Hello Jongin. Did you need something?" Luhan asks, still lying on the floor.
"Oh, um, well..." Jongin hesitates a little more, all the while fidgeting with his thumbs. "I was wondering if... I could come practice with you?"
Luhan turns his head and smiles at the maknae. It turns out that he was right. Jongin was here to "practice" with him. Luhan shifts and leans on his elbows, he takes a deep breath and asks the other, "If this is about your personality issues, please, spare me." Luhan releases a light laugh. "Believe me, not only you have been through that phase." He sits up properly and looks at Jongin seriously. "What really matters is what you've learned. Tell me... What have you learned Jongin-ah."
There were lots of things one could learn when the love of their life gives up on them. Kyungsoo had not given up on Jongin. And the younger would not let it happen, just the thought of Kyungsoo leaving brings too much pain. It was such a wonder how Kyungsoo could always bring out the best in Jongin, how the other knows what he needs in order to improve, and how he could still love the younger despite of everything.
"I have learned that it's not just about Kai and Jongin. That when the spotlight shines, it's not just for Kai, but for EXO to bask in. That EXO does not mean Kai only, but all twelve of us.” Jongin haven thought of it before, but when Luhan asked him, the answer came like he had it inside him all along.
Luhan nods. “That’s right Jongin-ah. EXO is not one person, it is twelve people combined and they make beautiful art together. As individuals we are great at some points but also flawed in others, and that’s what makes us EXO. We make up for each other’s flaws with our own greatness in order to stand on the stage and shine together.”
Both dancers smile at each other, understanding and reaching a conclusion. They dance one routine and stops altogether.
Luhan pants but still manages to tease Jongin. “Sehunnie was right. You gotta find that soul in your dance back soon maknae.”
“I will hyung. I definitely will.”
Will you love me until I’m me again hyung?
(xiii)
Slowly, Jongin patches the relationship he once has with his brothers. It was not really a hard thing to do as everyone held no grudge. It was as if a little disagreement between brothers which just passed by with time and Jongin’s sincere apologies. He thinks it’s time to talk to his lover.
I learned that he loves me, as me, the good and the bad.
(ii)
“I’m jealous of you hyung.” Jongin says as the other finished singing his heart out.
“What?” was the only thing Kyungsoo could offer as an answer.
“I’m jealous of how you could sing, of how you can reach such high notes.” Jongin closes their distance. He trails his hands down Kyungsoo’s forearms, down, down, down until only their fingertips are touching. Then he holds both of the singer’s hands in each of his own and tugs gently to bring him closer. “The melody of your voice engulfs all of me. Every time I hear you, I don’t drown. I’m lifted up and you make me feel like I can fly hyung. I’m jealous of how you put your heart to every song and it sounds perfect. And me, well, I have nothing hyung.”
Kyungsoo smiles at Jongin’s confession. He pulls the dancer’s nape closer so that their foreheads are now touching, and then he was softly whispering, “Cleary someone has not been looking at the mirror lately.”
Jongin looks at Kyungsoo with confusion.
“You, Kim Jongin, are a mover.” Kyungsoo releases the younger’s hands and moves backwards only enough for him to turn have his back against Jongin’s chest. Then he starts with a line Jongin knows by heart.
Oooh baby baby baby.
Jongin puts his right hand on Kyungsoo’s arm. He lets it slide down.
“The way you move tells stories.”
They turn to their right. “Every turn you capture the attention of many.” Kyungsoo moves to stand at Jongin’s back. Both men are facing the mirrored wall, only looking at each other’s eyes as they move in sync. Kyungsoo continues with his own confession. “Every step, you take your audience’s admiration.”
The lovers carry on with their dance with Kyungsoo’s voice as their music. Jongin couldn’t see Kyungsoo’s whole face at the mirror but each word is whispered directly through his ear, enough to make him believe that his love is right behind him, moving as he moves.
Kyungsoo steps to his left, now parallel with Jongin.
Neol boreodallyeoganeun aeksyeonsinirado jjigeulgeot cheoreom
Nan machi yeongungi doen geotcheoreom
Neon naege wanbyeok Jongin guides Kyungsoo’s right arm to settle on his neck. Sangsanghaebwasseo
And they both smile, Kyungsoo because of the love that he professes to the other, Jongin because he knows that Kyungsoo sings for him.
Hamkkeramyon ottolkka
Jongin wraps his left arm around Kyungsoo’s neck and then his left hand holds the other’s head. He dips them down and pulls them back up. Then Kyungsoo releases Jongin, opting to watch him dance to the words he’s singing.
I lost my mind
Noreul choeummannasseultte
No hanappego modeungoseun Get in slow motion
Nege marhejwo ige sarangiramyon
Jongin stops dancing. He takes light steps toward his love, savouring each note the other was offering for him. Then the distance was no longer a problem, both reaches for the other’s face, holding it.
Meil geudewa (Everyday with you)
Sumaneun gamjong deureul lanwojugo bewogamyo (Sharing and learning countless emotions)
Ssaugo ulgo anajugo (Fighting, crying, and hugging)
Naege malhaejwo ige sarangiramyeon (Tell me if this is love)
Kyungsoo ends the song, looking at Jongin’s eyes and a smile on his lips. “You’re asking me what you have Kim Jongin? You have the power to move people with your dance. Your soul speaks as you dance.”
“You are the soul that moves me hyung.”
“And you are the heart that perfects my song Jongin.”
(end.)
a/n#2: HAPPY BIRTHDAY senyor_alpaca!!!! So yey this is for you! Again. lol. You're sleeping!!! I thought you'd read this tonight -.-" Hope you enjoyed you're day. I'm waiting for my treat.
#3: no, what is love is not my fave exo song. nope.