Back to December
Title: Back to december
Pairing: Akame
Rating: G???
Genre: angst...a little of romance?
Warning: no beta!!!
disclaimer: They are not mine!!!! TT-TT!!!! no one in Johnny's is mine!!!!
summary: You can't deal with reality, you can't accept the truth...that's why you are there, back to that time, because you can't go on like this.
AN: Well sequel for You're not sorry ( http://amm-akame-love.livejournal.com/19439.html#cutid1) inspired by the song "Back to December" by Taylor Swift XDD!!! Sorry if there's any mistakes D:! and comment please~
Back to december
Jin’s POV
I’m so glad, you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
It’s been so long, how much have passed anyway? A day? A week? A month or has it been a year? You can’t tell now…you just feel so screwed because…well, you screwed things up, you know you ruined what you had with him…you knew there wasn’t turning back when you came home and you couldn’t find his things…you couldn’t resist it when realization hit you hard…he left you.
You've been good, busier than ever
With small talk, working the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
You know you did wrong…going, leaving him every time to maybe try to feel something for a woman you thought you loved, but then you knew that you just couldn’t forget him, even if you were with her, even if you kissed here or have sex…yes sex, because there wasn’t love…with her…you just can’t forget him, and now you are so damn hurt and depressed because now he hates you…you destroyed the most beautiful thing ever.
Because the last time you saw me still burns in the back
of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
You tried…so funny…since then you are trying to get him back…to get back what you had…even if it’s difficult and he won’t even glance at you…When you see his eyes, so sad and empty eyes, you knew that he loved you with his all and you just couldn’t admit the truth, you had dreams…and now you had nothing, but…even if it’s wrong…even if it’s selfish…you want him back, you want him in your life, you can’t go on without him.
So this is me swallowing my pride standing in
Front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
And I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
You want to turn back the time, to go back to those days to make it all right, to not look for “comfort” in someone else but to comfort your ex-lover. He has been avoiding you, and that hurts so much…watching the guys protecting him…he is so fragile, sometime ago, you protected him of everything and now, they have to protect him of you.
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
You ignored him for so long, that now it seems fair that he would do the same to do, he won’t pick up your calls, he won’t accept none of the flowers you give him, nor presents nor words, nothing…he just doesn’t want to have anything to do with you anymore. It kills you and you know that you deserve that, but you just can’t give up, you love him too much.
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall
You remember, it took you so long to realize that you were in love with him, but when you knew…you told him straight forward, without hesitation and without fully realizing what you were doing. You didn’t know back then, that the sudden confession will change your life for the better, it will make you feel…alive.
And then the cold came, the dark days, that feeling crept
into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye
You aren’t blind, of course you aren’t, that’s why you can’t take out of your mind those accusing eyes, that look he would give you each time you were late, not asking but certainly demanding an explanation, explanation that you didn’t give and that then it wasn’t asked anymore…and somehow, you think, you did feel hurt when he gave up on you.
So this is me swallowing my pride standing in
Front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
And I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
You can’t put up with this, not for more time, you are tired, depressed, you feel so desperate, like you can’t breathe any second longer…
You went out of your house, you are going to him…you are finally going to his place, to beg him if necessary.
I miss your tan skin and your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if you loved again I swear I'd love you right
“People realize what they had once they lost it” You hate who wrote that phrase, because it is so true, you miss him like hell, your bed feel empty and cold…you miss all the times you laughed so hard with him, when you would make love and the cuddle enjoying the time after, you miss his scent, his skin, his childish smile, his grins…you miss his voice, he talking to you…you miss his joyful eyes, they looking at you.
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
“I love you! Please forgive me!” you shout the moment he opens the door. He seems surprised, but besides that, you can see the dark circles under his eyes, his messy hair, his tired look…you know he hadn’t been taking care of himself again, and that’s added to your guilt. He tries to close the door, but you forced it open and get inside.
“Jin! What the hell are you doing?!” he is mad, so mad but you don’t care, you can’t go on like this.
“I am stupid! Kazu I am so sorry! Please! Please!” you hugged him ignoring his protests and his struggling, there was a time, when he would relax in your embrace so easily, and that he is putting a fight now, breaks your heart a little more.
“Let me go Jin!” but you just hold him tighter.
“I won’t! I made that mistake before Kazu! Now listen to me! I regret it!” you are crying now but you don’t care; not now when you can tell him everything, not now that you are fighting for him “I regret it all! I never loved her! I was fooling myself to believe that maybe there can be something, but it was impossible…I love you, please comeback” you sob hard and slide to the floor with him in your arms, you can feel him shaking, both of you are crying…you made him cry again.
“You don’t Jin” he murmurs “If you had loved me, you wouldn’t have done that” he is trying to say between his sobs.
“Believe me Kazu! You are wrong! I know that what I did has no excuse, but…believe me…I love you…I have loved you all along, please…give me another chance, I won’t waste it, I’ll love you till forever” you cupped his face in your hands and looked deeply into his eyes, waiting that your message came clear, hoping he would get the sincerity in your voice and eyes.
So this is me swallowing my pride standing in
Front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
And I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
Time passes and you are scared that he won’t answer, that he would reject you. So you let your hands to fall limp to your sides, and you look to the floor, you lost him…you really lost him, how could you keep on living without him? Doesn’t he know that without him your life has no meaning at all? You are about to get up, when you feel a hesitant hand gripping your shirt, you look at him…he seems doubtful but stills manage a very and almost unnoticeable smile and a soft look.
“Maybe…we can…try again” he says and you hug him again, he has saved your life again “But…if you let it go to waste I won’t just leave you, but kill you too” he says, his voice is kind of muffled by your shirt and rough for all the crying, and you just smile to yourself.
“I love you, thank you” you say promising yourself that you won’t blow it, that you’ll keep your word.
“I love you too” his sweet voice answers, and you feel so high and so happy, it’s been so long since you feel like this.
All the time
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Here it is~ XDDD hope you have enjoyed it XDD a happy ending xDDD!!!
Pairing: Akame
Rating: G???
Genre: angst...a little of romance?
Warning: no beta!!!
disclaimer: They are not mine!!!! TT-TT!!!! no one in Johnny's is mine!!!!
summary: You can't deal with reality, you can't accept the truth...that's why you are there, back to that time, because you can't go on like this.
AN: Well sequel for You're not sorry ( http://amm-akame-love.livejournal.com/19439.html#cutid1) inspired by the song "Back to December" by Taylor Swift XDD!!! Sorry if there's any mistakes D:! and comment please~
Back to december
Jin’s POV
I’m so glad, you made time to see me
How's life, tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
It’s been so long, how much have passed anyway? A day? A week? A month or has it been a year? You can’t tell now…you just feel so screwed because…well, you screwed things up, you know you ruined what you had with him…you knew there wasn’t turning back when you came home and you couldn’t find his things…you couldn’t resist it when realization hit you hard…he left you.
You've been good, busier than ever
With small talk, working the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
You know you did wrong…going, leaving him every time to maybe try to feel something for a woman you thought you loved, but then you knew that you just couldn’t forget him, even if you were with her, even if you kissed here or have sex…yes sex, because there wasn’t love…with her…you just can’t forget him, and now you are so damn hurt and depressed because now he hates you…you destroyed the most beautiful thing ever.
Because the last time you saw me still burns in the back
of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
You tried…so funny…since then you are trying to get him back…to get back what you had…even if it’s difficult and he won’t even glance at you…When you see his eyes, so sad and empty eyes, you knew that he loved you with his all and you just couldn’t admit the truth, you had dreams…and now you had nothing, but…even if it’s wrong…even if it’s selfish…you want him back, you want him in your life, you can’t go on without him.
So this is me swallowing my pride standing in
Front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
And I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December all the time
You want to turn back the time, to go back to those days to make it all right, to not look for “comfort” in someone else but to comfort your ex-lover. He has been avoiding you, and that hurts so much…watching the guys protecting him…he is so fragile, sometime ago, you protected him of everything and now, they have to protect him of you.
These days, I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
You ignored him for so long, that now it seems fair that he would do the same to do, he won’t pick up your calls, he won’t accept none of the flowers you give him, nor presents nor words, nothing…he just doesn’t want to have anything to do with you anymore. It kills you and you know that you deserve that, but you just can’t give up, you love him too much.
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side and
Realized I loved you in the fall
You remember, it took you so long to realize that you were in love with him, but when you knew…you told him straight forward, without hesitation and without fully realizing what you were doing. You didn’t know back then, that the sudden confession will change your life for the better, it will make you feel…alive.
And then the cold came, the dark days, that feeling crept
into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was goodbye
You aren’t blind, of course you aren’t, that’s why you can’t take out of your mind those accusing eyes, that look he would give you each time you were late, not asking but certainly demanding an explanation, explanation that you didn’t give and that then it wasn’t asked anymore…and somehow, you think, you did feel hurt when he gave up on you.
So this is me swallowing my pride standing in
Front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
And I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
You can’t put up with this, not for more time, you are tired, depressed, you feel so desperate, like you can’t breathe any second longer…
You went out of your house, you are going to him…you are finally going to his place, to beg him if necessary.
I miss your tan skin and your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if you loved again I swear I'd love you right
“People realize what they had once they lost it” You hate who wrote that phrase, because it is so true, you miss him like hell, your bed feel empty and cold…you miss all the times you laughed so hard with him, when you would make love and the cuddle enjoying the time after, you miss his scent, his skin, his childish smile, his grins…you miss his voice, he talking to you…you miss his joyful eyes, they looking at you.
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
“I love you! Please forgive me!” you shout the moment he opens the door. He seems surprised, but besides that, you can see the dark circles under his eyes, his messy hair, his tired look…you know he hadn’t been taking care of himself again, and that’s added to your guilt. He tries to close the door, but you forced it open and get inside.
“Jin! What the hell are you doing?!” he is mad, so mad but you don’t care, you can’t go on like this.
“I am stupid! Kazu I am so sorry! Please! Please!” you hugged him ignoring his protests and his struggling, there was a time, when he would relax in your embrace so easily, and that he is putting a fight now, breaks your heart a little more.
“Let me go Jin!” but you just hold him tighter.
“I won’t! I made that mistake before Kazu! Now listen to me! I regret it!” you are crying now but you don’t care; not now when you can tell him everything, not now that you are fighting for him “I regret it all! I never loved her! I was fooling myself to believe that maybe there can be something, but it was impossible…I love you, please comeback” you sob hard and slide to the floor with him in your arms, you can feel him shaking, both of you are crying…you made him cry again.
“You don’t Jin” he murmurs “If you had loved me, you wouldn’t have done that” he is trying to say between his sobs.
“Believe me Kazu! You are wrong! I know that what I did has no excuse, but…believe me…I love you…I have loved you all along, please…give me another chance, I won’t waste it, I’ll love you till forever” you cupped his face in your hands and looked deeply into his eyes, waiting that your message came clear, hoping he would get the sincerity in your voice and eyes.
So this is me swallowing my pride standing in
Front of you saying I'm sorry for that night
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing I'd realized what I had when you were mine
And I go back to December, turn around and make it alright
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
Time passes and you are scared that he won’t answer, that he would reject you. So you let your hands to fall limp to your sides, and you look to the floor, you lost him…you really lost him, how could you keep on living without him? Doesn’t he know that without him your life has no meaning at all? You are about to get up, when you feel a hesitant hand gripping your shirt, you look at him…he seems doubtful but stills manage a very and almost unnoticeable smile and a soft look.
“Maybe…we can…try again” he says and you hug him again, he has saved your life again “But…if you let it go to waste I won’t just leave you, but kill you too” he says, his voice is kind of muffled by your shirt and rough for all the crying, and you just smile to yourself.
“I love you, thank you” you say promising yourself that you won’t blow it, that you’ll keep your word.
“I love you too” his sweet voice answers, and you feel so high and so happy, it’s been so long since you feel like this.
All the time
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Here it is~ XDDD hope you have enjoyed it XDD a happy ending xDDD!!!