Why? ft. Junno
Title: Why ft. Junno
Pairing: Akame
Rating: G???
Genre: angst, fluff, romance?
Warning: no beta!!!
disclaimer: They are not mine!!!! TT-TT!!!! no one in Johnny's is mine!!!! AND I don’t care if Jin is married! He is still Kame’s and Kame is Jin’s! period!
Summary: Are you scared of your love? Are you scared of rejection?...but, hidden love hurts more...
AN: well well well! XD this is my first fics of the year! XDDD I was having a reaaally bad time about Jin's marriage and that...and well, what can I say? I haven't gotten over it, but at least XD I can say that I believe in akame XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD! sooo let's see~ angst will be my way of getting over this LOL naa naaa but let's just keep believing XD. Sooo the usual! this was inspired by Why ft. Junno by Ayumi Hamasaki <3 the song it's sooo lovely! and I had troubles in deciding which POV should it be...so...it ended like this XDD hope you'll like it~ and pleaseeee! comment! your comments make my day~
So! let's continue with the fic XD
Why…?
Akame’s POV
Time has passed since then. Has something changed?
What did the distance keep away from me?
I moved away slightly so as to not hurt you
But wasn’t I actually trying to protect myself instead?
Jin
Some people may not understand you, right? But again, it is not like they have to, but you will be glad if they try. No one know why you wanted to leave the band, why you were so willing to Johnny’s warning about being out for good, and every time somebody asks, you just say that you don’t know, when actually, it is totally the opposite.
You just couldn’t bear his closeness without wanted him for yourself.
Though we’re far apart, I can still hear
A voice calling my name
No matter where I am, I search for
Your back
Kame
He left the band. He has left you. That’s what you try to think every time, but no matter what; it seems that hating him is not an option. You can’t help but to love him. Every time you see his happy face, when you know for sure that he is living his dreams, you can’t be mad, but it still hurts.
Because you want him by your side.
“I want to see you” and “I miss you”
Why didn’t I tell you those words more often?
I couldn’t even tell the difference
Between kindness and selfishness
Jin
You can’t get over him. You try, oh God know how much you have tried! But nothing is the same. Yes, you are happy with your life, but you can’t share said happiness with him, and that gets you gloomy. Nothing is that bright anymore, love is just painful and bittersweet, and how much you wished to have him by your side, so everything would be perfect.
But this is real life, so get over it. You force yourself to think that.
Not the number of words we exchanged
But looking each other in the eye was important
Could things be different now
If I had thrown away my pride?
Kame
You used to think that even if you didn’t talk to each other, the looks you always shared would have a hidden meaning, that he would get the support, the love in your eyes, but you were so naïve, he can’t read mind nor can you. Besides, those kinds of looks, the warm one, were decreasing each day and you, being the proud and workaholic you are, you didn’t do anything. After all, you were nothing but ex-best friends, so, it wasn’t supposed to hurt this much.
Trying to say “I love you” but being unable to
That cycle repeated itself again and again
How much stronger should I
Have been for us to be okay?
Jin
You can’t! You can’t you can’t…You can’t get over him, you can’t forget him, it doesn’t matter how many girls you fuck, it doesn’t matter how many of them you try to date, it just doesn’t work. You need him, you want to hold him, to know how his lips taste, how it is to love and to be loved by him. The distance didn’t do anything but to increase your longing for him. You just want to love him.
The dream we pictured together
The future we promise to each other
Faded little by little since that day and we lost sight of them
I tried to reach out my hand, but I can’t reach you
Why...?
Kame
You have promised, you two have promised that you would make it big together, that you would be friends forever. But forever doesn’t exist, nothing lasts that long. All those promises are so buried and so ruined, you can cry over them, you actually cry because of it. When did you start drifting apart of each other? When was that you started to love him? When did you lose him?
“I want to see you” and “I miss you”
Why didn’t I tell you those words more often?
I couldn’t even tell the difference
Between kindness and selfishness
Akame POV
The sudden ring of your doorbell startles you. After all, it’s so late, who could be at this hour? You dry your eyes, after all, you don’t want someone freaking up at you.
- - Hai, I am coming. - You said. Once you reach the door you open it without thinking that much, sometimes the guys come without prior notice. But then, you gaze at Jin’s chocolate eyes and all disappears into nothingness.
- - Hey. - You said, you are so nervous, and Kame seems so shocked. Well, you suddenly coming all the way from America to see him must be a shock of some kind, right? - You see, I was around the neighborhood and I thought of dropping by…so….Hi? - Okay, that was so lame.
- - Hi - you answered him. Around here? Yeah, sure but you think it’s kind of cute, so you give him space so he can get inside.
- - Eh? - you catch his intentions, but you aren’t ready to go that far, so you just starts mumbling words under your breath - no, no, I have to leave, I mean, you don’t have to let me in. I was just…I wanted to see you…You see, there’s this thing I wanted to tell you…but…oh my God! It is so late! I am sorry…I didn’t mean to disturb you…- you say without sense until you feel his arms around you.
- - I missed you…and I love you too Jin. - You say. You are so happy right now, catching his words, knowing what could make him come over to see you, you are just…happy.
- - I wanted to confess first you know? - You chuckles while embracing him. - But yeah, I love you Kazu, and I missed you.
It seems that it would never be a lonely life for neither of you.
Trying to say “I love you” but being unable to
That cycle repeated itself again and again
How much stronger should I
Have been for us to be okay?
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AN2: so...what do you think? XDDD I just decided to use both POV's xDD *bows* sorry!! I just XDDD loved the song! and it fitted them well XDDD soo~ comment?? *puppy eyes*