2 entry of diary (because is not second day at all)
when you feel all chessy, sappy, hopeful, helpless and totally IDIOT at the same time -.-
Okay, I might be exagerating, but it was just a painful remainder of how...stupid? helpless? I DON'T KNOW, I can be :D *totally ironic*
The thing happened like this, a person (some one I might or might not have/had some feelings back then and that haven't totally vanished) talked to me because they needed some help with some project because they didn't have enough space to do it among all the things they need to do and because I happen to be the best at writing that person knows. It flattered me, totally, so I said yes with the pure intentions to help an old friend, nothing more, nothing less.
So, I had have TONS of work, still I remembered better that the essay was due tomorrow, said person had forgotten. We talked and all, so it was okay (feelings all forgotten and that) then, this sweet and beautiful song plays in my itunes and I am reminded of all the stupid feelings I might or not might had had (which still gets me pretty confused) and I believe "What the shit?!" I slept two fucking days a little too late doing the freaking essay! -.-!
And I actually worry about said person, although I like to believe that it is friendship, I mean, I don't get this butterflies at all and that stuff, although either way, our friendship is not the best thing in the world, because I happen to think that the person just talks to me whenever needs hepl with something. I like the person, I worry about their well-being and I used(note the use of italics and past tense) to feel funny whenever I was at their presence...but (as poor imitation of Edgar Allan Poe's Raven) NOT ANYMORE! (nevermore :D)
So yeah, I believe I may be exagerating, I totally hope I am, but my oh sweet mind couldn't help but think "dafuq dude?" so yeah...
And the oh so sweet song is..Good Enough by Evanescence -.-
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Fuck you itunes D;
(So, this is the most honest thing I have been about this matter like...ever, and there is a fucking lot to say about it...)
Okay, I might be exagerating, but it was just a painful remainder of how...stupid? helpless? I DON'T KNOW, I can be :D *totally ironic*
The thing happened like this, a person (some one I might or might not have/had some feelings back then and that haven't totally vanished) talked to me because they needed some help with some project because they didn't have enough space to do it among all the things they need to do and because I happen to be the best at writing that person knows. It flattered me, totally, so I said yes with the pure intentions to help an old friend, nothing more, nothing less.
So, I had have TONS of work, still I remembered better that the essay was due tomorrow, said person had forgotten. We talked and all, so it was okay (feelings all forgotten and that) then, this sweet and beautiful song plays in my itunes and I am reminded of all the stupid feelings I might or not might had had (which still gets me pretty confused) and I believe "What the shit?!" I slept two fucking days a little too late doing the freaking essay! -.-!
And I actually worry about said person, although I like to believe that it is friendship, I mean, I don't get this butterflies at all and that stuff, although either way, our friendship is not the best thing in the world, because I happen to think that the person just talks to me whenever needs hepl with something. I like the person, I worry about their well-being and I used(note the use of italics and past tense) to feel funny whenever I was at their presence...but (as poor imitation of Edgar Allan Poe's Raven) NOT ANYMORE! (nevermore :D)
So yeah, I believe I may be exagerating, I totally hope I am, but my oh sweet mind couldn't help but think "dafuq dude?" so yeah...
And the oh so sweet song is..Good Enough by Evanescence -.-
Under your spell again.
I can't say no to you.
Crave my heart and it's bleeding in your hand.
I can't say no to you.
Shouldn't let you torture me so sweetly.
Now I can't let go of this dream.
I can't breathe but I feel...
Good enough,
I feel good enough for you.
Fuck you itunes D;
(So, this is the most honest thing I have been about this matter like...ever, and there is a fucking lot to say about it...)