Endings
It's hard to believe that summer is almost over. Last time I posted, I was still complaining about US History class and essays...three weeks ago. It's been a long time.
I feel like I've hit a bump in my life. Too much going on, and yet not enough at the same time...Sophomore year and the whole concept of school just seem so far away now.
Maybe it's a result of thinking so much about "the future." The way it is now, it feels like there's some impregnable wall between what's going on now, versus "the future," but once you jump into the other side, you can never go back. In some ways, that might be true though...
Somehow, I think I've lost myself again. This summer, this year. Like I've lost my personality or any drive I ever had for...something. Something I don't really even understand, for reasons I don't understand. I need to fix this, to solve the problem, but how do you do that when you don't know what the problem is...
There's something about the emptiness that brings you to the edge of everything else. Decisions (what to do, what to choose...) and dilemmas (to end something or to push forward?).
It's just another phase. A very long phase...
Not to distract from the mood or anything, but
PLATINUM BLOND?! O_O
I feel like I've hit a bump in my life. Too much going on, and yet not enough at the same time...Sophomore year and the whole concept of school just seem so far away now.
Maybe it's a result of thinking so much about "the future." The way it is now, it feels like there's some impregnable wall between what's going on now, versus "the future," but once you jump into the other side, you can never go back. In some ways, that might be true though...
Somehow, I think I've lost myself again. This summer, this year. Like I've lost my personality or any drive I ever had for...something. Something I don't really even understand, for reasons I don't understand. I need to fix this, to solve the problem, but how do you do that when you don't know what the problem is...
There's something about the emptiness that brings you to the edge of everything else. Decisions (what to do, what to choose...) and dilemmas (to end something or to push forward?).
It's just another phase. A very long phase...
Not to distract from the mood or anything, but
PLATINUM BLOND?! O_O