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[amodernlilith]

Well, I am now fully settled into Charlottesville.

As usual, I spend most of my time worrying: Is my long-distance relationship working? Am I a crappy person? Am I a lazy person? Am I a stupid person? Do my friends like me? Do I like my friends? Do I spend enough time with my friends? Do I spend enough time reading? Should I quit school and

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[zanduar]

It is good to have friends like that and it is good to be open to people.

I'm glad I'm not the only person with a constant mental buzz. Yours is very similar to mine and I'm sure a few other people.

[lunathecat]

Your description of your friendship with Priya is very heartwarming.

Also, I can't help laughing about your mental buzz, which I'm sure you don't appreciate, but I'm hoping at some regular intervals when you're mid-buzz, you can step outside yourself and ask just one question: Does any of this really matter? It's not a healthy question to ask constantly but a little peace from the susurrus can be a relief.

Also, if you need to get out of WASPland, I'm sure there must be an international student group you can join or a multicultural fair to attend or something.

Personally, I find interacting in WASP culture to be an educational experience... I'm sure there are things you can learn from observing and critically pondering them.

[amodernlilith]

Ha ha, honestly I think I may have exhausted the WASP educational opportunities after four years amidst it. I don't have any problem with conservative upper-class type people. I have plenty of friends that fill that category. It does bum me out to see so many people interacting with others exactly like themselves, and not with people from different backgrounds. The WASP-i-ness doesn't apply as strongly to the grad students, of course.

I do step out from the mental buzz but normally the "no it doesn't matter" conclusion just leads to a slightly more existential trauma. Still working on the sense of humor thing.

[seekingferret]

I'm on NaNoWriMo as ronarfel. You should friend me!