just ugh

[amolibertas]

 I put so much energy and passion into so many things, but I haven't accomplished not alot of change.

Sometimes I buck myself up and float on the good feeling of "at least I'm trying!"

This is not one of those nights.

Nothing is different. Not in the world at large or in the lives of the people around me.

My family has learned to either roll their eyes

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[sailorscorpio]

::big hugs:: If you look at how you're doing as compared with what you were taught, I'd say you're doing quite well. You expect so much more from yourself, you're involved with all sorts of wonderful things, you go above and beyond for your family and friends and animals, and you support worthy causes. I believe you've said you work on exercising an eating healthy, which is a good thing to do (better quality of life). So what if you don't have someone in your lovelife at the moment? You'll find someone worthwhile when it's right. ;)

[amolibertas]

although sometimes I do complain about my love life, this wasn't really about that.

My mom. the stuff she does. She expects more of me than ANYONE ELSE EVER. and gives others a free ride. It's bothering me like fly on my food or a room full of mosquitoes.

[sailorscorpio]

Ah. ::grumbles:: The things I know of all you've gone through with her.... Grr, grr, grr!!! ::big hugs:: Don't let it get to you. I know it's annoying and feels personal, but try your very best to let it roll right off your back.

The real picture

[amolibertas]

I don't think it's personal. I thin it's downright unfair.

She met a lady in her 30's, MOVES her in within a week. She was supposed to help pay bills. Hasn' tmanaged to keep a job for more than 2 weeks.

I'm moving to Kansas, as you know. I'm still expected to pay next month's rent in July ($500). yet, I'm moving into MY new apt. July 3rd. and she still wants me to be sending money, althought instead of $500 it'll be $200, until the end of this lease. (Next April)

And frankly? I shouldn't have to help my mom if she has another adult partner in the house. I'm only helping my mom and kid sisters out and I am NOT SUPPORTING A MOOCHING EXCUSE OF A WOMAN whom my mother has managed to stupidly fall for who can't keep a job cuz she don't WANT one.

I didn't much think about this before because I REALLY thought this lady would be temporary. But now they've exchanged rings and plan on getting married in a state that does same sex marrage. And ya know what?

No.