everything is the same as it has always been.

This is what i want

what i want is unrealistic

I don't want to deal with the situation I've put myself in.
I just want to go to bed forever
that way it dosen't have to exsist.

But Kaeden just told me he loved me
that he loves me so much
and then we got into an argument
about who loved who more.
he won
because he's louder.

It's was just to much pressure
and everything was moving so fast
and I just want to go to bed.

I realized or found out today that I will never be able to return to school...
so i'm ending my education with a certificate that says I can be a secretary...
and I don't know how I feel about that....
I wanted so much out of life
now I feel as if i've fucked up so much
that i've lost almost every oportunity to make it better.

He was cowboy ( Read more... )

http://www.glamour.com/magazine/2007/08/rape-in-the-congo?printable=true
PLEASE READ THIS ARTICLE (INCLUDES GRAPHIC CONTENT)
even since I read this article, i can't get the same thought out of my head. I keep repeating it over and over again. Hoping that all of a sudden it might make sense. I can't even comprehend that kind of hatered or evil.

In ( Read more... )

I never realized how creepy this song was ( Read more... )

does anyone else have trouble eating 3 meals a day?
I feel like I eat breakfast
and then a few hours later I have to lunch
and then after that I have to eat supper!

I mean... come on!

I used to be able to chug southern comfort.
is it because I'm old, or out of practice?
but I can't do that anymore.

Presenting... Aerlie & Ryan's Top 10 New Year's Resolutions list!!

We will provide a mid-year update come June 2009 and then a year-end update to recap how we are coming along with our New Year's Resolutions!!!! WISH US LUCK!!!!

Aerlie's Top 10 Resolutions List
1. No more pot
2. Lead a healthier lifestyle through eating right and exercise
3. Save up $3, ( Read more... )