HELPLESS
Title: Helpless
Author: Amouralamer
Length: Drabble-ish
Pairings: Onesided!Jaeho
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys.....it makes me sad.
Summary: Yunho yearns for Jaejoong.
It had been years. Six long years they had been band members and for more than six years Yunho had loved him. When first they met he hadn't known what to make of the older boy, but was facinated by him.
Jaejoong was a Willow. Beautiful and delicate looking, but strong. He was rough in everything he did. The way he talked, the way he played, even the way he gestured.
That hadn't changed in all this time. Not really. Jaejoong may look polished, but he was still an uncut diamond underneath all the glamour.
On the outside he was cool and mysterious, but on the inside he was sweet and...well, a dork. When people meet him for the first time they think he is cold, but his heart was like the sun and it shone equally on everyone. Yunho had been basking in it's warmth for so long that he was sure if Jaejoong ever left the world would turn cold and dark and he would die. He needed that warmth like he needed air to breathe.
The sun Jaejoong may be, but it was Yunho who burned. At every innocent look, at every innocent touch. And they were innocent. Jaejoong may look like sex incarnate, sensual and alluring, but what looks like a gaze of lust and invitation, isn't. It was just Jaejoong. Just Jaejoong looking at you. When he wrapped his arms around you it may seem like a loving embrace, a caress, but it was just the hug of a friend. It took a while before Yunho realized that Jaejoong was not only unaware of Yunho's feelings, but he didn't return them.
Oh, Jaejoong loved him, but it was the love of a brother. As much as Yunho longed for Jaejoong's heart, he knew it would never be his. His Jaejoong may seem wild, but he was really very traditional. Eventually he would meet a nice Korean girl and marry her. Even knowing that Jaejoong will never fall in love with him, still Yunho dreaded that day. Dreaded the event which would kill the hope he didn't allow himself to feel. Yunho knew the day would come. It was only a matter of time. He was excruciatingly jealous of this faceless girl. The girl who would win his love's heart.
Yunho knew he would spend their wedding night crying, broken. Weeping for the finality. The loss of his love. Imagining it Yunho felt the pain aleady. He didn't know if he was strong enough to survive the reality. It made him grateful to their fans. Their obsession kept Jaejoong from meeting a lot of girls and made him leery of dating. Jaejoong knew that any girl he showed an interest in would immediately become the target of hate and envy. Yunho knew it was selfish of him to take pleasure in this. He should want only joy for Jaejoong, and he did. He wanted Jaejoong to find someone he could delight in completely. Still...Yunho wished it could be him.
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Author: Amouralamer
Length: Drabble-ish
Pairings: Onesided!Jaeho
Rated: PG
Disclaimer: I don't own the boys.....it makes me sad.
Summary: Yunho yearns for Jaejoong.
It had been years. Six long years they had been band members and for more than six years Yunho had loved him. When first they met he hadn't known what to make of the older boy, but was facinated by him.
Jaejoong was a Willow. Beautiful and delicate looking, but strong. He was rough in everything he did. The way he talked, the way he played, even the way he gestured.
That hadn't changed in all this time. Not really. Jaejoong may look polished, but he was still an uncut diamond underneath all the glamour.
On the outside he was cool and mysterious, but on the inside he was sweet and...well, a dork. When people meet him for the first time they think he is cold, but his heart was like the sun and it shone equally on everyone. Yunho had been basking in it's warmth for so long that he was sure if Jaejoong ever left the world would turn cold and dark and he would die. He needed that warmth like he needed air to breathe.
The sun Jaejoong may be, but it was Yunho who burned. At every innocent look, at every innocent touch. And they were innocent. Jaejoong may look like sex incarnate, sensual and alluring, but what looks like a gaze of lust and invitation, isn't. It was just Jaejoong. Just Jaejoong looking at you. When he wrapped his arms around you it may seem like a loving embrace, a caress, but it was just the hug of a friend. It took a while before Yunho realized that Jaejoong was not only unaware of Yunho's feelings, but he didn't return them.
Oh, Jaejoong loved him, but it was the love of a brother. As much as Yunho longed for Jaejoong's heart, he knew it would never be his. His Jaejoong may seem wild, but he was really very traditional. Eventually he would meet a nice Korean girl and marry her. Even knowing that Jaejoong will never fall in love with him, still Yunho dreaded that day. Dreaded the event which would kill the hope he didn't allow himself to feel. Yunho knew the day would come. It was only a matter of time. He was excruciatingly jealous of this faceless girl. The girl who would win his love's heart.
Yunho knew he would spend their wedding night crying, broken. Weeping for the finality. The loss of his love. Imagining it Yunho felt the pain aleady. He didn't know if he was strong enough to survive the reality. It made him grateful to their fans. Their obsession kept Jaejoong from meeting a lot of girls and made him leery of dating. Jaejoong knew that any girl he showed an interest in would immediately become the target of hate and envy. Yunho knew it was selfish of him to take pleasure in this. He should want only joy for Jaejoong, and he did. He wanted Jaejoong to find someone he could delight in completely. Still...Yunho wished it could be him.
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