hard to feel like you are actually living your life, when you feel you aren't living for anything anymore

spoke too soon, jinxed myself, what i said was right....it all happened

not for a while now

with every step i take i do more harm than good.
impossible to do anything right.

when is the last time you have been happy??? anyone??? the last time you have TRULY, HONESTLY been happy? when was the last time you had a REAL nice laugh, that wasn't just because something was alright funny, but tummy aching, honest to God laughing??

havent really updated in a while. last week was pretty good. valentines day was nice. got balloons from liizy joooones, i love my girlfriend haha. chris and i went out to dinner adn he got me CALILILIES!!!! my favorite flower, yay. um, we went out to dinner and stuff, yummy yummy to the tummy is all i have to say hahah. thursday i went to chris's ( Read more... )

i am sooooo tired of being lied to by mostly everyone. if you don't think i can handle the truth get the fuck over it. i am not some little ignorant girl who can't handle the truth. i am alot stronger than you people think so get the fuck over yourself and tell me the truth. because you are making me look like the idiot, just because of a mistake ( Read more... )

this weekend is just not my weekend. i don't know, it just really isnt. last night lizzy and i went to the senior show which was pretty good. then we went to jj's house to hang out with greg, jj (obviously), price, mark, and shelby. which was alot of fun. today checkley came over and we hung out for a while. freaking checkley, he is rediculus. he ( Read more... )

tell me please, why the heck cant i EVER do anything right?? it always has to be something. i always have to do something wrong.
why the heck can't i ever find a break? like honestly. i am so sick of everything right now. i try, but it makes everything worse and i don't know what to do.

it is said, that with every death, a new life is born.

your soul shall live on, and you will no longer suffer.
that day i dread, but can't wait for.
a day to see you suffer no more
it could come all too soon.

strength: Capacity or potential for effective action

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this week has been a pretty bad week. haha, havent said that one in a while. thank goodness tomorrow is friday, i just want this week to pass by like a bad memory. chris has been really helpful these past few days. he doesnt realize how much he has actually helped me. and my girl lizzy joooooooones, gotta love that beauty!!! she is my sister for ( Read more... )

just a horrible memory i thought was gone

old ghosts.....have come back to haunt me

i no longer have anyone to talk to about it.
i once did, but i guess and i can rethink counting on anyone

everyone will eventually let you down
if they do it once, they will do it again.