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[amtrldcmd]

Just realized tomorrow is Sept. 11th. Great. Sept 11th has always been weird for me, since the whole thing happened. Part of me feels sad for what happened, another part knows relatives of the people who died must hate reliving this on TV every year as they tape from Ground Zero. Nicole(my stepdad's cousin) lost the love of her life in the attack,

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[iceman0704]

If getting away for a few days would help you figure things out, then please do so. I wish I were the person you wanted me to be, but I don't know how or if I can be that person. I want the fighting to stop, the misery I feel we are both in to stop, the constant pain we both feel, yet are unable to resolve. The whining and bitching, the crying and sleepless nights, the anger and aggression, the depression, I want it all to end. I want to be happy and I want to be with you, noone else. I want to be understood and respected. I want to be loved and cared for. I don't want anyone else, nor do I want you to find anyone else. I want it to be you, Caden, and me forever as a family. I don't want to lose either of you and if I lose you, I lose you both. You think I only care about me and sometimes, maybe I do, but most of the time, I think about the whole picture. When I think about just me, you make it seem like that is how I always am. I want to marry you, raise Baby Caden with you and who knows how many more kids. I work hard

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[amtrldcmd]

Yeah, you want to marry & then can't decide if your feelings towards me have changed. Riiiight...