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[amusinganomaly]

I made kind of a horrible realization tonight: I'm absolutely terrified to come back to school after my year off. This year has been complete shit as far as my school life is concerned, and I realized that I've just been riding it out and waiting for the end. I have no idea what will await me when I return, but if it's more of the same (or worse), I honestly don't know if I can handle it. Last year was so amazing, and I remember being really happy and feeling like I was surrounded by friends all the time. This year, its been lonely. Too many hours alone in my room, never time to talk to anyone. Very few people to talk to when I did have time. I've lost a lot of friends, and I don't think I can handle another year like this. Though, if it happens, I'll have to I guess. And fuck, I have no idea what I'm doing my senior year, when most of the few people I interact with will be gone. God, I hope I get put into a new house and can make new friends.  I wish I went to school closer to home.
I really can't handle another year like this.
I hope everything works out okay.
I'm so nervous I can't sleep >_<