Made it through another holiday season!
Christmas Eve, finally. All the shopping is done. I have a bit more wrapping to do once Ian is asleep, then I can play Santa and go to bed - if I'm lucky with absolutely no visions in my head.
Last night friends (plural even!) came over and we decorated the dreaded Christmas tree. I told Ian that the thing I really like about our Christmas tree is it has alot of personality because different people decorated it together. So there isn't a uniform type of decoration. The bottom branches are heavily adorned because that is Ian's territory. lots of candy canes. It's rather pretty in a Charlie-Browny kind of way. For better or worse Ian's presents are all bought, I have to wrap up a few more but that's it. I hope he's happy. Jen & Chris aren't coming to Christmas at Mom's because she says everyone hates her. Of course that is only hurting herself - and Ian because he will have two less people to be with. He gets so upset when we can't manage to act like a family. We had a great day today, finished out shopping, watched tv, wrapped gifts and ate take out Chinese for supper. He is the most amazing person - makes me cry just watching him sometimes. Ian is still awake, tossing and turning in his bed. I remember how hard it was to sleep the night before Christmas. The awful anticipation. He's worried about getting a lump of coal. Poor baby, I told him that he was a very good boy, but he still worries. He left 9 cookies and a letter for Santa.
I ordered mom's computer. I have to live on about $100 until next payday but atleast it's done.
I actually have of oodles of alcohol in the house since both Heather and Sunshine left stuff here last night, but I think I'm actually too tired to drink. I usually have a few before playing Santa because it makes me so sad. I'm not sure if I'm sad because I have to do it alone or if I'm sad because I have to do it. I love Ian but I hate this mommy stuff. But come tomorrow night this time, it will all be over. New Year's doesn't bother me half as much as these couple days. Next week Ian is with mom all week, I plan to work alot, drink whenever possible and hopefully get to hand out with Heather at least one evening.
Last night friends (plural even!) came over and we decorated the dreaded Christmas tree. I told Ian that the thing I really like about our Christmas tree is it has alot of personality because different people decorated it together. So there isn't a uniform type of decoration. The bottom branches are heavily adorned because that is Ian's territory. lots of candy canes. It's rather pretty in a Charlie-Browny kind of way. For better or worse Ian's presents are all bought, I have to wrap up a few more but that's it. I hope he's happy. Jen & Chris aren't coming to Christmas at Mom's because she says everyone hates her. Of course that is only hurting herself - and Ian because he will have two less people to be with. He gets so upset when we can't manage to act like a family. We had a great day today, finished out shopping, watched tv, wrapped gifts and ate take out Chinese for supper. He is the most amazing person - makes me cry just watching him sometimes. Ian is still awake, tossing and turning in his bed. I remember how hard it was to sleep the night before Christmas. The awful anticipation. He's worried about getting a lump of coal. Poor baby, I told him that he was a very good boy, but he still worries. He left 9 cookies and a letter for Santa.
I ordered mom's computer. I have to live on about $100 until next payday but atleast it's done.
I actually have of oodles of alcohol in the house since both Heather and Sunshine left stuff here last night, but I think I'm actually too tired to drink. I usually have a few before playing Santa because it makes me so sad. I'm not sure if I'm sad because I have to do it alone or if I'm sad because I have to do it. I love Ian but I hate this mommy stuff. But come tomorrow night this time, it will all be over. New Year's doesn't bother me half as much as these couple days. Next week Ian is with mom all week, I plan to work alot, drink whenever possible and hopefully get to hand out with Heather at least one evening.