we step into a room of opaque air.

[amysky]

i feel depleted, like i don't have enough oxygen. i'm frustrated for a variety of unnecessary reasons, most of which involve this 2.5-day migraine and trapped qi and inner restlessness due to lack of productivity in accordance with said migraine (and slacking on fiction writing) and, of course, my "time of the month." ew. i also didn't sleep much

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[angrypillows]

"All individuals develop compensatory patterns, ways of holding and defending against a variety of physical and emotional insults to form. ... There is a well-documented "cellular memory," a memory of experience stored in the tissue at a cellular level. Touching the body will frequently help the client access these physical memories encoded in the fascial (or connective tissue) matrix."

This is so unbelievably true.

[rrockrr]

but, what is there to do except move forward?
I think that is the right attitude to have. I know that you already know this, but you shouldn't beat yourself up over things you "could have" done or "should have" done. I should have started singing when I was 9. I should have kept playing the piano when I was 7. I should have been more focused on the guitar in my teenage years. But I came to the conclusion that, just because I wish I had done those things now, doesn't mean I actually had the capability to do them back then. I just wasn't the right person. If that makes sense. And, since I know I literally could not have been the type of person then that I am now, there's no reason to get down on myself for it. It just wastes time & generates too much negativity.

I am convinced that I experience two types of sleep paralysis: Hypnagogia and Hypnopomia (basically, you're partially awake, but can't move your body).

- Russell