Comments | anakin415: Update on yesterdays entry.

anakin415

Update on yesterdays entry.

Nov 29, 2008 18:19

It was him.

( I dont know what else to say )

Comments 23

agt_spooky November 30 2008, 00:47:38 UTC

Oh, god, hon, I am so, so sorry to hear this. It's never easy to lose someone you care about, but when they take their own life it's even harder to bear. My thoughts are with you, sweetie. {{hugs}}

anakin415 November 30 2008, 01:06:10 UTC

Thank You!!!

I have been staring at the computer screen for days. I have shit I need to do but I just cant get it done. I am in slow motion its ridiculous. I am trying to snap out of it, I just cant.

In all honestly I am so pissed. So pissed at him, he left his little girl behind. I just ... I dont know. I didnt go to the funeral today. Part of me didnt think I should, i hadnt seen him since high school, 15 years or whatever. I didnt know what I should do, because I am still so angry at him.

I just dont know how to get myself out of this funk, how to stop being angry, I just dont know.

celtprincess13 November 30 2008, 01:09:10 UTC

Oh hon, I'm so very sorry. I was holding out hope it was just a coincidence.

My sympathies to his family and friends.

anakin415 November 30 2008, 01:23:40 UTC

**hugs**

thanks

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anakin415 November 30 2008, 10:05:20 UTC

**hugs back**

thanks dear!

coltshot_1 November 30 2008, 02:47:49 UTC

I had a similar situation with a high school friend -- long time ago now so I'm kinda thinking I ought to have some words of wisdom or something, but I don't think I do. It gets better? Sounds stupid. That frozen pissed off feeling eventually grinds down to resigned sadness, although in my case there's a still a simmer of anger at the waste of life and potential. I don't understand it -- didn't then and still don't.
I am so sorry for your loss and sorry for his family. Suicide is very difficult always, but especially at the holidays.
I'll be thinking about you.

anakin415 November 30 2008, 10:07:45 UTC

yah its that frozen pissed off feeling, you nailed that right on the head. And you are right, waste of life and potential, Danny could light up room with just his smile. I just wish I could shake him senseless right now you know.

thank you for the understanding, I needed that perspective.

samazon13 November 30 2008, 04:44:39 UTC

I'm so sorry, sweetie. That sucks. :(
Sending lots of good vibes your way.
xoxo
Samazon

anakin415 November 30 2008, 10:08:06 UTC

thank you sweets I need the vibes!