Now I'll die old and faceless
Hiding deep in some depressing little hovel in the background of the show
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If you see me just ignore it, 'cause there's nothing I could offer anywayFeeling the annual dread of having to go back to full time work. It is always so jarring, even though I know it’s coming. I just get used to things and then ( Read more... )

Work notes from week ( Read more... )

This week has been a motherfucking doozy. I have been so exhausted. So much work, 5 full length busy shifts, plus 3 almost 4 babysitting mornings. And like two feet of snow over the whole week, I’m fucking so sick of shovelling. Like over it, fuck off. And constantly being up at 5 or 5:30 is awful, so I’m just not sleeping enough and it’s making me ( Read more... )

I've had a lot of feelings reading various articles and I just had to start putting some of it into words ( Read more... )

So I'm back babysitting, here are the rage notes I typed through the short moments of peace where they were quiet and doing their school work ( Read more... )

It’s just the fear, it’s just the fear
It’s just the fear, it’s just the fearThese are various grievances or notes from the past few weeks/holiday season ( Read more... )

There's a fire in my heart, but I've got blood in my mouth
Tongue caged by my teeth, trying hard just to speak
But your shout has got me beat and I'm rusting
I'm rusting

And my mother always told me "Tread lightly, don't step on his toes"
And that was okay at a young age, but I am fully grown

Suit and tie at the table, another disappointment
I'll ( Read more... )

Just wanted to vent a bit. I was asked to take a shift for someone that was sick and I tell them that no, I can't, I have plans with family, and apologize because they took a shift for me a last week and I was grateful. Then my boss texts me to ask whether I can take the shift and again I say the same thing ( Read more... )

Ugh. Sickness has taken hold of me. The last few days have been rough, so much snot and coughing. And very little sleep ( Read more... )

My papa passed away a week ago, actually the night of my last post, the 25th ( Read more... )