sometimes I get really sick.
I know what can cure me.
but I can't, I just can't.
I had a strange dream last night and I was haunted by what haunts me each and every day. It's not only making my reality hell, but it also swam into the depths of my dream state.
I want it
I want it to end too
but I want it

hmm....the days seem really long lately ( Read more... )

WHAT ( Read more... )

i want to run. right now. But I don't want to carry my inhaler with me due to the humidity. I wish Dan were here right now. My blanket smells like him <3. We're almost at another monthly anniversary which will be one year and five months. I feel like we've been together forever ( Read more... )

[x] I've consumed alcohol ( Read more... )

I'm 19 today ( Read more... )

and my heart has slowly dried up...

yeah i put that line in this journal before...get over it. it's one of my favorite song lines..and i'm in a shitty mood.

another day ( Read more... )

warning: a sappy entry will be following this message ( Read more... )

if only everyone knew all of the shit thats going on in my life. I refuse to talk to anyone, except for about 2 people, because I can't trust anyone else. I just wish I can get this stress out of my heart and off of my mind. I can't wait till the official year and a half anniversary. i'm scared, I really am. I'm afraid of this future and what will ( Read more... )