You've had to deal with a lot of death lately. It's never easy. I guess we all just get through it the best way we can.
**I messed up with the no lax last night, I did Monday OK, but with everything that's been going on I wanted that security last night, still I’m not beat yet, life goes on and I will be back to it on Monday, I will kick it in the butt!**
Way to go! Your attitude is great. You seem very strong to me. You mentioned caring for your ex because of his illness, even though you want to be somewhere else..and you are always there for your friends. You must be a wonderful friend to have.
wow. Long tough couple of weeks for you but you seem to be handling beautifully. Glad you are coming out the other side of it and there seems to be some hope for some more fun soon.
Sounds like you have a strong plan going on for whittling down the lax use which is amazing that you are working on it so faithfully when it has been such a big part of your safety zone for a while. You are doing great!
Murder mystery sounds like great fun. I've thought about doing it a few times but never have done one for some reason.
Thanks, Never give up hope of being normal, Back when It all started a friend gave me this passage;
Don't Quit When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the funds are low and the debts are high And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest, if you must, but don't quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As everyone of us sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about When he might have won had he stuck it out, Don't give up though the pace seems slow, You may succeed with another blow. Success is failure turned inside out, The silver tint of the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far, So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit It's when things seem worst that you must not quit. For all the sad words of tongue or pen, The saddest are these: "It might have been!"
wow that was a gutsy thing to say to the host! good though i think. i hope it's lots of fun! murder mystery dinner. never been to anything like that. good luck with the lax. you're doing great! : ]
It was so worth it thought, such a pleasant evening, sat with friends having a great time and absolutely no comments on the fact I wasn't eating anything.
I almost felt normal.
Did go away thinking I should have paid more attention to how the other girlys ate. might have learned a thing or two about what is normal. I think in some ways the fact I don't know what normal is anymore is one of the biggest obstacles to me ever getting better.
i know what you mean. it's gotten nearly impossible to read what my body is telling me. and i have no idea what "normal" is either. glad it went well : ]
Yeah how are you supposed to get well, when you don't know what well is.
recovery doesn't seem to tell you either, just pumps you full of what is known to be too many cal's in an attempt to plump you up. there's no focus on what you really should eat, what hunger feels like and how to recognize when you really are full.
you don't expect a child to write a story without teaching them the alphabet and up. how can they expect someone with an ED to just go out and eat normally when it's so clear we don't know the first thing about normal eating?
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**I messed up with the no lax last night, I did Monday OK, but with everything that's been going on I wanted that security last night, still I’m not beat yet, life goes on and I will be back to it on Monday, I will kick it in the butt!**
Way to go! Your attitude is great. You seem very strong to me. You mentioned caring for your ex because of his illness, even though you want to be somewhere else..and you are always there for your friends. You must be a wonderful friend to have.
I hope next week is much better for you.
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I guess |I try and live by two rules, live with no regrets and remember your only no-one when You no longer care for someone.
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Sounds like you have a strong plan going on for whittling down the lax use which is amazing that you are working on it so faithfully when it has been such a big part of your safety zone for a while. You are doing great!
Murder mystery sounds like great fun. I've thought about doing it a few times but never have done one for some reason.
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Thanks, Never give up hope of being normal, Back when It all started a friend gave me this passage;
Don't Quit
When things go wrong as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all up hill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As everyone of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about
When he might have won had he stuck it out,
Don't give up though the pace seems slow,
You may succeed with another blow.
Success is failure turned inside out,
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
For all the sad words of tongue or pen,
The saddest are these: "It might have been!"
It's one of those things that stuck with me.
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I almost felt normal.
Did go away thinking I should have paid more attention to how the other girlys ate. might have learned a thing or two about what is normal. I think in some ways the fact I don't know what normal is anymore is one of the biggest obstacles to me ever getting better.
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recovery doesn't seem to tell you either, just pumps you full of what is known to be too many cal's in an attempt to plump you up. there's no focus on what you really should eat, what hunger feels like and how to recognize when you really are full.
you don't expect a child to write a story without teaching them the alphabet and up. how can they expect someone with an ED to just go out and eat normally when it's so clear we don't know the first thing about normal eating?
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{hugs}
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hugs back (((((())))))
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