Art, Emotion, and Mid-Life Longing

[anamomda]

The background rhythm of rain, the whistle of a distant train, the fact that Karl has been a world away for days, and the music of Anna making art with scissors and markers and tape in the next room.... these elements are overwhelming me with emotion, and a longing to create beautiful, lasting art. I'm obsessed with the passage of time, and the

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[ehy2k]

No kidding: this very moment, I was also pondering the same thing. I see so much of my own struggles and (perceived) limitations in your post

[anamomda]

Once again, we understand each other, and of course I think you're immensely talented, so thank you for responding in your (usual) thoughtful way.

I often look at my life now and realize that I am oh-so-fortunate, but that doesn't dull the longing to create -- to BE -- more, or lessen the regret of stupidly rejected opportunities. And I completely agree with you about feeling like a survivor of my/your experiences. I rarely feel like a victim, but I do struggle with feeling like I contribute enough. Knowing that I have the Montessori sub job lined-up for next fall makes me feel much, much better about myself. And the fact that it is part-time = more free time to create = even better.