the blues

[ananasrose]

I hate how invisible I feel all the time. I don't matter util nobody else is around or somebody needs something. Its extremely frustrating. I don't do this to other people, so why does this happen to me all the time. The only person I feel seen by and payed attention by (to?) is KRis. HE says that he's all that matters and in a way he's kind

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[misaimed]

I'm really sorry if I've contributed to the invisible feeling. If I have, it's not intentional at all.

Why would going to Oneonta be a waste of time? Hudson Valley is a waste of time. Oneonta is at least a great school.

p.s. we need to hang out... maybe next week?

[ananasrose]

i have felt lately that i'm a big pain in the butt to you, but i've never felt ignored. you (almost) always respond to whatever i send you and you put up with me no matter what. the invisibleness has absolutly nothing to do with you.

i'm afraid that other people, because i'm going to oneonta, will think that all the time they spent on me was a waste. 'two years of teaching and helping this girl along and shes choosing a carrer that has nothing to do with music?! what a waste!' i'm excited about oneonta and childhood ed ... i just wish other (music) people could be happy about it for me too.

i would love to hang out ... we should figure something out :D

[ananasrose]

p.s.
totally random question, but whats your mums first name and where does she work?

i'll explain later

[lost_n_hurt]

dude u r doing suttin that u really want to do and thats all that matters, whe cares what other ppl think, its ur life,not theirs, so in the end ur decision is what matters......luv ya...

[majamono]

I LOVE YOU so much!!!!!! you're my fav sis in the world. and i think you'll be a great teacher and have a good time at oneonta... forget about whsat other people say unless its a good thing that they're saying