yea i know its been awhile
i felt i needed to write in here
my moms "special friend"
shawn came by today
and it made her act
crazy like everytime 
he comes over. 
shawn and my mom dated
when i was younger 
and they broke up 
basically because of me 
but whatever. he showed
up today it made her go crazy for 
a little while. she took off out of nowhere
i woke up ( Read more... )

i am sick of always being the one to talk first 
and now i am seeing that our friendship was 
really nothing because i am guessing that if 
she really cared she would have talked to me
by now and asked whats wrong are you mad 
at me or something along those lines but what
ever i see the truth now ....

i wish i could talk to people 
and them not get mad at me
i have alot of things to say to 
certain people but i don't 
want to say anything because
i am afraid of them getting
mad or not wanting to be 
my friend anymore because
of what i want to tell them 
GAHHH this is so hard 
i want to scream at the top 
of my lungs because 
i have been holding it 
in for so ( Read more... )

to whoever actually reads this i might not write in here anymore erin gave me a journal for my birthday and i think it might be better for me to write in there because i can actually speak the truth and not have to worry about the reprocussions of what i say so its just an f.y.i to the people that read this

i am so sick of everyone shutting me out
i am sick of feeling angry
i am sick of saying sorry
i am sick of fighting
i am sick of caring
i am sick of everything being ok the next day
i am sick of no one talking to me
i am sick of everyone getting drunk
i am sick of everything in general
GAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

i woke up at about 12:30 to my mom on the phone telling me we had to go to missy's boyfriends graduation party which was fine we came back and i went downs stairs and watched some t.v. and then my mom comes down stairs and tells me that the neighbor across the street just committed suicide....and his daughter was in the house when it happened so i ( Read more... )

ok so yesterday my sis had a dance recital and my dad decides he is going to get drunk before he comes ... so my dad was drunk and it made me aggrivated...and didn't get that i wanted him to leave me alone even though i said it 15 million times... i was so upset and then i texted erin to see if she was going to come to colleens recital and she said ( Read more... )

i don't understand when the only time i really need a favor from her she puts her boyfriend before me..... i mean i should have known she does it all the time ..... in fact all my friends do.....gosh it makes me sad =[ ..... idk i never even talk to her anymore because i refuse to go over when hers boyfriends over or do anything with her when her ( Read more... )

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I DON"T CARE ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YOU GUYS WINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I CAN'T TAKE YOU SHIT ANYMORE!

i have beening thinking lately ... why?... why must people be so rude? and just alot of things.... it all started last week when i was sent down for my shirt that said "virgin margerita".... i thought i was doing something good wearing that shirt... i was promoting non-alcoholic beverages and for people not to drink... well my teacher thought it ( Read more... )