It's been a long time since i've posted. I'm a firm believer in 'no news is good news'. Not sure if anyone reads this, but i started it for me, and will continue to use it for me. i like the month of february. birthdays, valentine's day, etc. i had a great valentine's day. i know my bf doesn't really like vday, but he celebrated it anyway, ( Read more... )

Well, winter break is upon us. I'll not have internet to vent. :( I'm off to see family and friends. I leave here happy, but sad at the same time. I miss my family so much...but the break from it all has been nice. Here's to future plans and future success. see you next year.

Hmm. when everything is going well or i'm not around a computer, i don't post. :P I think that i missed a lot of my childhood by being the obsessively good child for my father, and he's taking advantage of it. I am ALWAYS expected to do the right thing. and if i don't, he gets angry with me, which i dread. But why should i dread his anger? ( Read more... )

It's cold! It makes getting out of my warm comfy bed extremely difficult each morning!! Well, i haven't updated in a couple days...no news is always good news. been BUSY. I love the speech team-they rock hardcore yeah baby yeah! (oh, wait, that was ti...) How much do i adore my roomate? there aren't even words. she rocks-now, if only we could ( Read more... )

Yay for BHN OA's and two boys named Justin and Kevin. We were eliminated, but not or lack of trying and/or sacrificing of the body!! so, i am wonderfully sore...and off to sleep i go. Yay for volleyball, and activities planned so we don't riot. :P much love to all!

If anyone actually reads this, don't worry about me-the last entry was bad. but what happened wasn't good. Thanks to Alex for helping me see that it's not my fault, and extra thanks for keeping the bad dreams away. It was just what i needed. Alex-you are awesome ( Read more... )

Why do people think these things of me-i try to help, to truly be a friend. but of course-they only want one thing. so to all those who have bad intentions in mind-i can not and will not be walked over. this only adds to the reasons i cannot sleep. now, i'm not sure if i'm upset at you or not. right now, yes-and proud of myself for standing up ( Read more... )

I feel so selfish. When a friend needs you, you are supposed to be there. well, i'm here, just not completely. i just want to give someone a hug when they're sad or upset. but i'm putting so much effort into distancing myself that i may be neglecting those i care for most. I am truly sorry, and hope i can be forgiven. I am here, i do ( Read more... )

At the moment, i'm not sure how i feel. i'm hurting deep inside because i'm trying to let go of someone, but trying to keep them as a friend. What i feared has come true. we have nothing to talk about unless it is about drama not caused by us but including us. i am so afraid of getting hurt-i don't think i know why i care so much. there's ( Read more... )