Update of sorts
1) So I fell into doing NaNoWriMo again this year, as is the tradition. I've spent the last six days or so basically being angry with myself about being such a sheep. I don't have a story to tell. I don't have any characters I really want to explore. I don't even want to challenge myself to write these days; every time I do this event I come away from it resenting writing a little more, enjoying it less, and disliking my quality and style. This is an annual whinge; last night I basically manned the fuck up and got about 2.5k words written. I just need to keep that up to catch up. Par for today is 11667 words; I'm at..... 4100. Lol. Still, it's not impossible.
2) I'm now officially a graduate! Boom. The dissertation scored.... not very well. But it did pass. So I'll be swanning around in my robes on the 23rd of this month. Robes I need to order. Train ticket to Edinburgh I need to order. I also need to try and arrange some social stuff while up there.
3) Jobseeking.... may be looking up! I've been offered work through a teaching agency. Its pay is meagre (I'd actually be earning LESS than when i STARTED at the CPS as an entry level admin). However, it is something I'd like to get in to. I believe it would be in a school for kids with special needs (autism spectrum, visual impairments, etc). I hope my old Sign Language qualification came into use! I just need to wait for an interview date to be arranged.
4) Speak of, I'm re-studying my BSL Level 1. I do have a qualification in it, but it's old as fuck now (2005, I think). As I've not really used it at all in four years, I figured going through it from scratch would be a canny move. One of the perks of being on Jobseekers Allowance is Birmingham Education Authority subsidises it.... like a boss. So the 6-month Level 1 course plus 3 exams cost me a one-off payment of £25. That's it. Trololol.
5) Still working through the XBox games.... slowly. Finished AC2, going to try and get Brotherhood before Christmas, (whereafter I'll aim to get Revelations cos duh, should be cheaper after the big day). Now working through Arkham Asylum (again, City's gonna be one I'll hope to get after the rush). Truth be told I'm not enjoying this one so much.... plus the colours really make me feel queasy.
6) Christmas is coming up. The family have had a massive great falling-out (the Wicked Witch of the North is trying to manipulate it into being HER christmas dinner that WE are organising for her and her friends.... to which my aunt basically told her to go fuck herself, whereupon my uncle (witch's underling husband) basically rang up, screamed like a kid at her, then barred her number (read: had it barred for him because he's a technophobe). So yeah, that's gonna be exciting. Annoyingly, I was the one doing the legwork trying to find places to dine. They still haven't booked anywhere. So when the dust settles... yeah. They're not gonna get into the place they wanted. That'll be another row. But idk. popcorn.gif
7) I'm also feeling ridiculously lethargic and apathetic toward.... everything right now. There's not really anything that's gripping my interest, making me feel anything other than a grey shape existing on the peripheries. It's not an unusual feeling, but I feel I'm just generally fatigued from being around people- tossing my time and energies onto distracting projects that don't give anything back in return. I think once I've gotten the sorts of Liar Game and whatever out of the way I'm going to take a nice long look-at-my-life-look-at-my-choices, and just.... keep moving on. I'm one of those people who comes across a community on the internets- be it VR, BRRP, NaNo, the LGT, HiH or any of the other things I've flirted with over time.... and I set down anchor and stay there..... until I convince myself that leaving is some sort of betrayal of trust. Or some equally silly and irrational bullshit. Hell, the fact I'm still updating the LJ i've had since I was 18 is probably some indicator of this. Le sigh.
That'll do for an update. I may try get some writing done. Or something.