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[anceolmugain]

So...I saw him today... My stomach didn't jump and my heart didn't stop, so that's a good sign, right?

I think I'm really starting to accept this. It's not easy to give up wanting to be with someone who means so much to me, but I think I'm getting there. And I think today was a testimony to that fact.

Right???

Comments

[starsandabove]

Every time you post about Trent and make comments on how you are jealous, etc. i can't help but wonder "how good is ur relationship with john?" don't get me wrong i know you like/love john, but do you really love him as a person or do you just love having a relationship with someone whom you get a long with?

This isn't a hate comment or however else it may sound--this is just a "i want you to be happy and get what you deserve out of life and live how you want to live."

Kelly- i know we don't talk much--but still, i consider you a very good friend--and i want you to be happy.

[anceolmugain]

I love you Betsy, mostly because you are such a great friend, despite our lack of communication. Believe me, I've this talk with someone about my relationship with Johnm and anything that is going on there isn't related to my dealing with Trent. I know this because some feelings popped up well before all this. But I'm working on that with myself. The thing with Trent is more like a life crisis than a personal crisis. It affects me in more ways than just my intimate relationship with one person. At first I would be up all night thinking about it, I couldn't concentrate on anything because I was not only tired from being up all night, but I was also thinking about it 24/7. But that's not really the case anymore. The thing I'm starting to notice now is more of an acceptance of what has happened. I've even drafted an email to him about possibly being friends. If I ever feel up to that point, I will send it to him. It's just something I'm learning to deal with and I really do think I'm getting better with it; it's just taking time