Let's talk about RELATIONSHIPS.
And no, I don't mean shipping. (Though now that you mention it...)
I'm on my way back to college for my freshman spring semester, and during the entire break I couldn't get my mind off of my significant other. He was on vacation in Australia for three weeks, I was stuck at home preoccupying myself by writing a letter to him each night we were apart (a trend that's developed in our relationship). Finally, after nearly four weeks and 26 letters, we spent the day together and to put it simply, I haven't been able to get him out of my head for the entire month I've been home.
I know this is kind of typical, especially for young relationships (we're both turning 19 this year and have only been together a few months), but I can't shake the feeling that this is something deeper than what I've experienced in the past. I've only been in one relationship before this--it was with my high school boyfriend and lasted for two years; we parted because I couldn't, or didn't want to, handle a long-distance relationship, although he still retains feelings for me (and has pretty much refused to even try to get over me). I won't deny that I loved my ex, but looking back on our relationship now, I realize that he put me on a pedestal and I don't want that from a partner.
To be blunt, I want someone who's willing to challenge me rather than worship me, and my new partner gives me that. We're complete opposites, but...it turns out that we complement each other better than we expected to, or at least I think so. As confusing as he is sometimes, I feel as though my mind is clear when I'm around him. With him, things make sense. I mean, we still have a lot to learn about each other, but I developed very strong feelings toward him very quickly and am really happy with him, even though I know he's got baggage. And he seems happy with me too. Most relationships have that, right?
But here's the thing. When I was with my ex, I always felt as though I needed to see more people and experience different types of relationships before I settled down, because I wanted to make sure there wasn't someone else out there for me. But with my new significant other (I just hate the word "boyfriend"), I'm...oddly okay with not doing that, if it means that I can stay by his side. I don't know if he feels the same way about it as I do, but... I don't know. Part of me says "you're way too young to be thinking about marrying somebody" but another part of me wants to be with him for a long time.
I don't know. I just needed to get this out somewhere.
I'm on my way back to college for my freshman spring semester, and during the entire break I couldn't get my mind off of my significant other. He was on vacation in Australia for three weeks, I was stuck at home preoccupying myself by writing a letter to him each night we were apart (a trend that's developed in our relationship). Finally, after nearly four weeks and 26 letters, we spent the day together and to put it simply, I haven't been able to get him out of my head for the entire month I've been home.
I know this is kind of typical, especially for young relationships (we're both turning 19 this year and have only been together a few months), but I can't shake the feeling that this is something deeper than what I've experienced in the past. I've only been in one relationship before this--it was with my high school boyfriend and lasted for two years; we parted because I couldn't, or didn't want to, handle a long-distance relationship, although he still retains feelings for me (and has pretty much refused to even try to get over me). I won't deny that I loved my ex, but looking back on our relationship now, I realize that he put me on a pedestal and I don't want that from a partner.
To be blunt, I want someone who's willing to challenge me rather than worship me, and my new partner gives me that. We're complete opposites, but...it turns out that we complement each other better than we expected to, or at least I think so. As confusing as he is sometimes, I feel as though my mind is clear when I'm around him. With him, things make sense. I mean, we still have a lot to learn about each other, but I developed very strong feelings toward him very quickly and am really happy with him, even though I know he's got baggage. And he seems happy with me too. Most relationships have that, right?
But here's the thing. When I was with my ex, I always felt as though I needed to see more people and experience different types of relationships before I settled down, because I wanted to make sure there wasn't someone else out there for me. But with my new significant other (I just hate the word "boyfriend"), I'm...oddly okay with not doing that, if it means that I can stay by his side. I don't know if he feels the same way about it as I do, but... I don't know. Part of me says "you're way too young to be thinking about marrying somebody" but another part of me wants to be with him for a long time.
I don't know. I just needed to get this out somewhere.