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[and_so_do_i]

I'm exhausted & I don't know why
probably because I don't eat real food
I need to start, like, making dinner at night or something.
no more "handful of chocolate chips and ramen" for breakfast.

I wanted to leave today at 10:30.

I went to lu's class at 9:15 and she didn't show up. I called my phone from Ben's phone and got a message hi katie

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[ballerina_fins]

anxiety attacks are never fun. but just... breathe, babe. a lot. slowly. eating healthier will help.. drinking more water... a regular sleep schedule. exercising too, if you can fit it in. keep your life as stress-free as possible, if possible, you know?

and i know you're into B, but i mean, why? attraction is great, but if he's doing the whole multiple girls thing, and is obviously reluctant to enter any arena that looks like monogomy or even dating with you, and is causing all this stress and anxiety and he's going to be gone in a year and won't even commit while he's here, even though he may be friendly and there's attachment and emotional connection behind closed doors, is it really worth it? is there something else behind the B thing? the need to win him? to be able to win him? wanting love, affection? trying to fill some hole with this?

call me if you want to talk or maybe get wasted. that last part was funny because i was only half-joking...

[and_so_do_i]

hey =]

oh I don't even know. I think you're right about that whole lost paragraph. I get REALLY intensely drawn to very weird people and I think B is just a product of that ... thing that I do. I'm trying NOT to feel like this. It's working.

I still wanna go to France though. the french are so cute (pas il, though).

so much stupid frnech homework though. better get workin on that anyway.

thanks for being a voice of reason.