Something has got to change.

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I don't know why I can't seem to get motivated at work. I visit with the patients, but not as much as I should. I do activities and try to get the patients to want to come out to them, but they don't. I feel like all I do for activities is paint blasted birdhouses, because that's what the patients will come out to, but I'm so sick and tired of

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[takla_makan]

You could read Harry Potter to them!

I don't know, either. I don't even know what your job is, exactly, so my advice is bound to be bad.

Lack of motivation is often a sign of depression. I would recommend going and getting meds, but I'm coming off mine because they've ruined my life with their side effects. The meds might (might!) remove the unmotivation, but they'll make you sleep 12-18 hours per day, too, so you don't finish your dissertation before the money runs out.

I'm sorry you suck. I suck, too, so I know how it sucks to suck.

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It does suck to suck. I am going to go see the doctor asap. My mom brought to my attention that I've been depressed since last summer, so yay! It's funny that just last week I thought to myself "I think I'm depressed." Amazing how slow I am. Not everyday is bad, but normally I feel like I'm walking through sludge. I am afraid of the side effects from medication. I just want to feel better and am willing to try just about anything.
I don't want you or anyone else to think I'm always in a deep hole with depression. I still laugh and find joy in things, but there's always an undercurrent of sadness. No fun. But I'm glad to know I have friends who understand and who know I'm not making a lame attempt at getting attention.
Thanks