If I were a month, I'd be: October ( Read more... )

i hate being annoyed, feeling smothered, feeling pressured, being confused . . . especially when you can't do anything about it.
i need a vacation. i need man time. Elise was right . . . i need man time.
"como me duele hasta el alma en mi habitacion."

i want to go farther than Elise is willing to let me go. i can understand it. i can respect it. i can't, however, take it like a bitch. i'm not a child to be chided. i can accept a simple, "no, i don't want to, and here is my reason ( Read more... )

i feel like i've been in a bad dream. in fact i feel like i'm still there. i don't know what it is that is causing it. i used to write so faithfully. then it began to feel forced. now when i write, sometimes it still feels forced. now, this particular entry feels drawn, pulled. i'm afraid ( Read more... )

tummy is funny now. not feelin' as good as i could.
tired; something is not so good on the inside.
think i'm gonna go to bed.
no song quote.

i'm tired. there is no other way to say it ( Read more... )

Lisa, you're flying? where did you get the money to fly around europe? i thought you were tight on money.

so Elise just found out that make overs exist. Lisa knows what it's like. i dont like it. i dont like the idea of it. i liked her the way she was. i don't like seeing her in all that makeup. i think makeup should only be used for acting. does one really need to attain one's confidence by wearing makeup? Shakespeare said "God gave you one ( Read more... )

i'm feeling good . . . well, maybe not "good" exactly, but not bad ( Read more... )

so things are starting to feel like they could possibly come together for my movie ( Read more... )