this is how it feels to not believe
way away away from here i'll be
today has been ridiculous. ridiculous. that is the word i have come up with to describe today.
i woke up at 7:40 am. showered and went to church. even though i already went to church today, when i got home, i called everyone i could think of to ask them to work for me so i could go to clara's baptism. the one sunday in the past two months that i get scheduled to work has to be this one. let's see, i'll make a list of the people i either asked to work for me, or people i tried multiple times to get a hold of:
1. Nora
2. Annette
3. Josh
4. Ben
5. Caleb
6. Shea
7. Tela
8. Alex
9. Roxxie
10. Jessica
11. Deanna
i think that's it, but i could be missing some.
so, i tried some people knowing that they probably already work today, but it was worth a shot. whatever, i guess i'm over that for right now.
i get to work. and yeah, the shirts available today were all at least a size 19. i wear a 14 1/2. last time i wore a bigger size, i wore a 16 and i was fucking swimming in it. so i asked irangel what the hell i'm supposed to wear. he asked me if i still have my old red shirt, and i said i have it at home. so he told me to go home and get it and i wouldn't get written up for being late. well duh, i would totally have a bitch fit if i would get written up for that shit. but anyway...i went home and got my shirt. clocked in only 4 minutes late, so that was all good. i first was doing drinks and presenting for drive-thru. that went ok. then after about a half hour, i started running for drive-thru and fucking audra skartvedt was doing drinks and presenting. she is FUCKING SLOW! it's like working with one of the tards that place hired. she never serves the fucking orders. she's clueless on how to do anything. she doesn't know to give people straws on orders that only have drinks. she doesn't know to give them their receipt. she doesn't know how to tell grill that she needs something if a customer complains that their order was prepared wrong, so i have to do that for her while trying to get other things together. she doesn't know how to do any ice cream orders. she doesn't know how to start getting an order ready by herself if i'm taking an order outside or doing something else. for the love of god, she doesn't even know how to get ice. honestly, how retarded can you possibly get? jesus christ. so i had to put up with that until i went home at 3.
i bet our fucking drive-thru times doubled during the time she was there. before she showed up, we were at 130 seconds, which was good for being the busiest weekend of the year. but i bet times went up to over 200 while audra was there. there were some simple orders that were just drinks or ice cream that she didn't serve off that got to over 300 seconds. fuckin dumbass.
so after that bullshit, i went home. ordered some stuff for my camera. then i went to watch tv in the living room to watch my recorded law & order shows. i watched a couple and dad comes in a kicks me off of the t.v. so he can watch his precious fucking nascar races. can he not wait till the tv is free? ugh asshole.
so now i'm here, not knowing of anything to do. i would be studying for my history test, but that's what tomorrow night is for. it feels good knowing that i don't have school tomorrow, but i don't know what to do. i don't feel like watching tv in my room. i hate being in my room watching tv, it seems so boring. if i'm upstairs watching it, there's more going on. plus, if there really is nothing going on upstairs and there's nothing on tv, i can always watch something i've recorded.
i lit incense in my room when i came downstairs. it's still going, and it's coming towards me. i can feel it and taste it in my mouth and it's really disgusting.
i desperately need something to do right now. i think i'll watch a movie with mom. i know she probably wants to get away from dad too. we always watch a movie in my room when that happens. i'm kinda running out of good movies to watch though. she never wants to watch the same movie twice unless she hasn't seen it in a long time.
that reminds me, i need to get my Rules of Attraction dvd back from Maggie. I used that in my LAII speech over a week ago and Maggie asked if she could borrow it and watch it. so i let her. and she still hasn't given it back to me. i better get it this week, otherwise i will never get it back because i know i won't see her this summer.
some other people i talk to in school i probably won't see either. like jillian, jera, deanna, and others. it's gonna be weird not seeing jillian for three months, but it will also be a relief i think. lol that's mean to say, but she's been getting on my nerves A LOT lately. actually not just lately, it's been like that for a while now. so yeah...i'm kind of glad school is ending this week, just so i don't have to see some people for a while.
maybe in august i'll go back to school as a completely different person. but, i do highly doubt that. just a thought. i want to change, but i don't want to. the only reason i want to change is because i'll be in senior classes my junior year, and i don't really like to associate with many people, especially those in the upper class. i don't like that class at all really. hell, i don't like our class. but at least i know them, and they know me, and they know when and when not to talk to me, etc.
maybe i should rethink the early graduation. i don't know. i really want to. i just don't want to be in classes with seniors next year. they make me nervous for some reason. probably just because i know they don't know how i am. ehhh fuck that. i'll be myself and they can mind their own fucking business. i'm graduating early god damn it.
and this is the end, because i'm going to go see what mom is up to. i think she's making something for dinner. she asked me what i want a while ago and i didn't answer her. anyway, hope she keeps it simple. i hate big meals that she makes. well, i'm out.
today has been ridiculous. ridiculous. that is the word i have come up with to describe today.
i woke up at 7:40 am. showered and went to church. even though i already went to church today, when i got home, i called everyone i could think of to ask them to work for me so i could go to clara's baptism. the one sunday in the past two months that i get scheduled to work has to be this one. let's see, i'll make a list of the people i either asked to work for me, or people i tried multiple times to get a hold of:
1. Nora
2. Annette
3. Josh
4. Ben
5. Caleb
6. Shea
7. Tela
8. Alex
9. Roxxie
10. Jessica
11. Deanna
i think that's it, but i could be missing some.
so, i tried some people knowing that they probably already work today, but it was worth a shot. whatever, i guess i'm over that for right now.
i get to work. and yeah, the shirts available today were all at least a size 19. i wear a 14 1/2. last time i wore a bigger size, i wore a 16 and i was fucking swimming in it. so i asked irangel what the hell i'm supposed to wear. he asked me if i still have my old red shirt, and i said i have it at home. so he told me to go home and get it and i wouldn't get written up for being late. well duh, i would totally have a bitch fit if i would get written up for that shit. but anyway...i went home and got my shirt. clocked in only 4 minutes late, so that was all good. i first was doing drinks and presenting for drive-thru. that went ok. then after about a half hour, i started running for drive-thru and fucking audra skartvedt was doing drinks and presenting. she is FUCKING SLOW! it's like working with one of the tards that place hired. she never serves the fucking orders. she's clueless on how to do anything. she doesn't know to give people straws on orders that only have drinks. she doesn't know to give them their receipt. she doesn't know how to tell grill that she needs something if a customer complains that their order was prepared wrong, so i have to do that for her while trying to get other things together. she doesn't know how to do any ice cream orders. she doesn't know how to start getting an order ready by herself if i'm taking an order outside or doing something else. for the love of god, she doesn't even know how to get ice. honestly, how retarded can you possibly get? jesus christ. so i had to put up with that until i went home at 3.
i bet our fucking drive-thru times doubled during the time she was there. before she showed up, we were at 130 seconds, which was good for being the busiest weekend of the year. but i bet times went up to over 200 while audra was there. there were some simple orders that were just drinks or ice cream that she didn't serve off that got to over 300 seconds. fuckin dumbass.
so after that bullshit, i went home. ordered some stuff for my camera. then i went to watch tv in the living room to watch my recorded law & order shows. i watched a couple and dad comes in a kicks me off of the t.v. so he can watch his precious fucking nascar races. can he not wait till the tv is free? ugh asshole.
so now i'm here, not knowing of anything to do. i would be studying for my history test, but that's what tomorrow night is for. it feels good knowing that i don't have school tomorrow, but i don't know what to do. i don't feel like watching tv in my room. i hate being in my room watching tv, it seems so boring. if i'm upstairs watching it, there's more going on. plus, if there really is nothing going on upstairs and there's nothing on tv, i can always watch something i've recorded.
i lit incense in my room when i came downstairs. it's still going, and it's coming towards me. i can feel it and taste it in my mouth and it's really disgusting.
i desperately need something to do right now. i think i'll watch a movie with mom. i know she probably wants to get away from dad too. we always watch a movie in my room when that happens. i'm kinda running out of good movies to watch though. she never wants to watch the same movie twice unless she hasn't seen it in a long time.
that reminds me, i need to get my Rules of Attraction dvd back from Maggie. I used that in my LAII speech over a week ago and Maggie asked if she could borrow it and watch it. so i let her. and she still hasn't given it back to me. i better get it this week, otherwise i will never get it back because i know i won't see her this summer.
some other people i talk to in school i probably won't see either. like jillian, jera, deanna, and others. it's gonna be weird not seeing jillian for three months, but it will also be a relief i think. lol that's mean to say, but she's been getting on my nerves A LOT lately. actually not just lately, it's been like that for a while now. so yeah...i'm kind of glad school is ending this week, just so i don't have to see some people for a while.
maybe in august i'll go back to school as a completely different person. but, i do highly doubt that. just a thought. i want to change, but i don't want to. the only reason i want to change is because i'll be in senior classes my junior year, and i don't really like to associate with many people, especially those in the upper class. i don't like that class at all really. hell, i don't like our class. but at least i know them, and they know me, and they know when and when not to talk to me, etc.
maybe i should rethink the early graduation. i don't know. i really want to. i just don't want to be in classes with seniors next year. they make me nervous for some reason. probably just because i know they don't know how i am. ehhh fuck that. i'll be myself and they can mind their own fucking business. i'm graduating early god damn it.
and this is the end, because i'm going to go see what mom is up to. i think she's making something for dinner. she asked me what i want a while ago and i didn't answer her. anyway, hope she keeps it simple. i hate big meals that she makes. well, i'm out.