wasn't expecting to write this... it just kinda came out

[andrew_tsks]

i found out today that my old roommate tattoo bill is dead. my best friend, rob deicide, called me from missouri where he lives now to let me know. apparently bill, who struggled with heroin addiction for about half of his life, finally hit that fatal od. he was living out in san francisco, and i hadn't talked to him in a couple years, and now i

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[andreadawn]

i heard about this from my friend ben (snakepit). he used to live with him as well. do you know him??

[andrew_tsks]

yeah, i totally know ben! holy shit, small world. i last saw him about two months ago, when he was back in richmond visiting. he just recently did a split zine with my friend chris terry, who does gullible.

god, it's sorta funny (by which i mean not really funny at all); when i got this news i thought about the cartoons ben drew in snakepit back when angela (one of his exes, who i used to hang out with) and martin from triskaidekaphilia (guitarist for one of ben's old bands) died, and wondered if he'd end up doing another one like that. they died of heroin too. fucking heroin, i SWEAR to GOD.

but yeah, bill touched the lives of a lot of different people from a lot of different places, and that's becoming obvious right now.

by the way, tell ben i said hi.

[andreadawn]

i, as well, was in snakepit a few times. fortunately, i didn't have such an ill fate. i was cast as (in chronilogical order) a random 'cute girl', a crush, and finally as the evil girl who bruised his heart a little.

or so i've heard.

i'll tell him you said hello. :]]]

[andrew_tsks]

ahahaha i have the book, i'm gonna be trying to guess which of several girls you are next time i read it.

[goddamnitkate]

I love you, Andrew and I'm sorry that you've lost Bill. Don't forget all of the good memories, though. And wherever it is that people go when their turn here's up, I'm pretty sure he'll be free of addictions. And that's what he deserves...freedom from that. I know what it's like to struggle with things of that nature and just imagine that now he's been relieved of that. I love you, Andrew. I hope you're doing well.

[andrew_tsks]

hey, thanks for the good wishes. i've been thinking a lot about the concept of whether he's in a better place, etc, and i didn't feel comfortable saying it because i don't know how i feel about all that. either way, it's a nice thought, and i'm sure that if that sort of thing exists he's in a better place.

and things are going well. i'll try to send you an email soon if i get time. i've been really busy lately...

[discobunny]

that shit scares the hell out of me. drugs are so risky. i'm really sorry to hear about your loss andrew, its gotta be tough.

right now i'm sick as hell and can hardly talk (or swallow even), but as soon as i'm feeling better you can expect a phone call from me

love you big brother!!

[andrew_tsks]

aww i love you too. i saw your bulletin on myspace--hope you feel better.

thanks for the kind words.

potential.

[sine_graph]

what was he doing in front of a Russian store?

damn. how do people get lost is that swirl? I'm sorry.
I hope that you, on the other hand, are all right & floating.

I miss you, Andrew.

Re: potential.

[andrew_tsks]

the idea of that picture is a sight gag, involving him pointing to the words "sausage factory" while grabbing his crotch. bill was the type of guy who'd see something like that and have to make that joke.

i'm doing pretty well, although this week hasn't been that great. i'm still kinda bummed out. friends dying sucks.

you know that if you want to email me about anything, you're welcome to, and i will write back. i've always thought you ruled and were too hard on yourself, and i'd love to be better friends with you than i am now. so yeah, feel free to write anytime you're missing me. my email address is in my userinfo.

hope all is well with you. take care of yourself.

[sine_graph]

ah, it all becomes clear. it's a real shame.

I think it's been rough for all of us, in our own ways. not sure how must you know/read/etc, but y'know, things keep going. I definitely appreciate you saying that. I think I made an immature school girl comment on your music blog a long while ago, and like I said, we both seem to be drifting further and further away from this thing (maybe me only wanting to!) but again, thanks for everything.

you are the sweetest and I love you eternally.

[andrew_tsks]

no worries on all counts, and of course i love you too. keep in touch, dear.

[baheadrn]

We're sorry to hear about your friend. Take care.

Jenn, John, FiFi, Bob Cat