It's hard to find a friend.

[andrew_tsks]

I pretty much swore to myself that I wasn't going to use this thing anymore a long time ago, maybe two years ago. There have been a few posts since then, but not many. Livejournal was a relic of a part of my life that feels, in hindsight, like a total mistake. It was a time when I completely succumbed to feelings generated by depression and social

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Glad yer not dead :)

[aidan_f_damage]

Hey good to hear from you!

It's hard to make new friends as you get older I'm learning. Actually it really blows. I have a hard time relating to/trusting/talking to guys as of late. Get a cat and a roommate, you won't be so lonely.

Take care and for reals, talk to girls!!! We're not scary! We just don't talk to boys because they're mean (mostly)

Re: Glad yer not dead :)

[andrew_tsks]

haha well girls are mean too, at least sometimes. heh. but seriously, i already do have a roommate, it's just that we don't keep the same hours, so i don't see him much. and i know what you mean about making friends as you get older, too. boy do i know.

hope all's going well with you these days. it was good hearing from you.

Re: Glad yer not dead :)

[aidan_f_damage]

My roommate and I have the same situation - only difference is I can't stand him, so I'm happy about it.

You should poke about on LJ more often - you're missed.

Re: Glad yer not dead :)

[andrew_tsks]

that may or may not happen, but either way, i'm grateful for the sentiment.

[theydontloveyou]

I don't want to offend you by saying that are experiences are related but I think I understand your feelings of loneliness. I have this problem where I push people away after sometime - when they warp into people I can not understand or if they take advantage of me or even if they do something I just don't like (like stay in a relationship with some disgusting specimen of a female. Ugh. This is especially awful because the majority of my friends are male, and their girlfriends become jealous of me or whatever). Whenever this happens I tend to just create circumstances or say just.the.right.thing on purpose to make sure I'd never have to be friends with them

[theydontloveyou]

*our, not "are" in first sentence. WOW.

[andrew_tsks]

hey, it could be worse--you could be single!

seriously, that does suck, and although i have a feeling that you just haven't run into the right group of people for you to fit in with, i know that's really hard to do, so i don't really know what else to say about that. hope it all gets better for you. for both of us, really.

[theydontloveyou]

eh, people evolve or adapt. I just adapt. There's no use crying over it I think, it's just kinda disappointing.

[lolaburns]

you are so great. really. please don't disappear.

[andrew_tsks]

i won't. in fact, i will hopefully talk to you soon.

[cowboyhero]

It's always a pleasure to hear from you. I'm sorry that you feel like crap.

[andrew_tsks]

eh, that's ok. things will get better, they have to.

hope all's well with you.

[ddr_ho]

You know me, always trying to err on the side of "Everything's going to be all right, just give it time," and generally I am very happy with my life and proud of how things have turned out so far....

BUT I did just read this on a day when I have several times, and with a horrible sinking sadness, thought, "Oh my God, I am always going to be alone." It's a nasty feeling. So just wanted to say that. I feel you, brother.

[andrew_tsks]

yeah, i can relate to everything you say here. where everything else is concerned, it's pretty damn good. but... i'm really lonely. ohhhh well. you're right, it'll be fine. for both of us. ESPECIALLY you. you're rad, lady. seriously.