Comments | andrewpants: bah humbug.

andrewpants

bah humbug.

Dec 18, 2005 13:54

i'm really fucking unhappy with the current state of my life. the real issue that is that nothing's particularly wrong. my dad's health is getting better, he's gone home and is doing his 90 meetings in 90 days, my housing is in a state that somewhat resembles stability, my old job called me the other day to ask if i could do another assignment for ( Read more... )

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jughandle December 18 2005, 22:46:22 UTC

you goddamn scrooge. i miss you. i don't know what to get you for christmas yet, but i have an idea and you have to promise not to sell it if i buy it for you.

also, for christmas i am requesting the thing you got me when you last saw me in SF a few weeks ago. is that possible?

hope you are well and that your dad is holding up okay.

andrewpants December 19 2005, 18:31:13 UTC

don't get me anything for christmas ! I HATE CHRISTMAS.

i can probably go get some more for you in a few weeks. it would have to be a month on the dot from when i last went. do you remember what that date was ?

jughandle December 20 2005, 17:32:11 UTC

it's been almost a month! it was a few days after thanksgiving. you are the best. and whatever, i am getting you something.

lyndank December 18 2005, 23:34:36 UTC

I always have to be somewhere else. The thought of going back to south dakota is alomst rendering me suicidal if i didnt have people i'd feel guilty about leaving behind; it would be a problem. i cant go back to south dakota and im leaving here in like a month. If i have to stay in SD for more than a few weeks I dont think ill make it. i can barely sleep at night. Im heavily self medicating the thoughts of returning to South Dakota. Like i would rather go to prison than south dakota. i would rather go to Iraq. i know its not like normal way to feel. i guess nothings That bad in S.D> but it feels like the end of the world, like i cant go on there. I KNOW what your going through.

lyndank December 18 2005, 23:40:19 UTC

Oh yeah, Out of curiosity. The Intense feeling of always needing to be somewhere else...have you ever addressed that in counseling? I'm curious if its like a symptom of a disorder or just some deep rooted iranian tribalistic inborn traveling gypsy syndrome we were born with?

andrewpants December 19 2005, 18:06:08 UTC

i think it's that and the fact that i moved around so much as a kid. we never really lived anywhere for more than 2 years at a time, so i guess the feeling of moving constantly is stuck in me.