everywhere i turn, something reminds me of him.  I try to ignore it all, but i can't help it when it's this obvious.  I mean, i just walked into my basement where my parents are watching a movie.  That takes place in israel.  where one of the main characters' name is the same as his screen name.  How ridiculous is that? his screen name isn't ( Read more... )

Have you ever been so utterly lost that you weren't sure if you won or lost something.  Or maybe just not sure of whether or not you could have possible done both at once.

Ten years.  Well, almost ten years.  We didn't quite make it to the ten year mark.

This past year seems to be a complete year of loss.  Or maybe it's the nostalgia i'm ( Read more... )

You know what i realized today? I realized that we are all severely fucked up in the head.  We all have problems, and they drive us absolutely insane inside, but we try to hide them from people.  No matter how honest and truthful we really think we are, we try to shelter ourselves from the opinions people will bestow upon us if they could see how ( Read more... )

You're so afraid to continue what we have,
you know something's there,
you feel just as much as I do when you touch me,
it's just you're pulling away now
because you know that if you don't pull away soon
you might find yourself falling in love and
I don't think you're prepared for that.

you're so slick with that sarcastic slew
or phrases like 'i ( Read more... )

high school is over.
i'm not sad
as a matter of fact, i'm grateful.
i can't even believe that it's finally done with.
see you guys at the reunion.  
ciao.

cocktail party = bs.
party at julia gomshteyn's uncle's house.  nik, ed, anna, me.  
my friends rock.  
her's don't.
ran into yelena.  was interesting and unexpected. <3 my cuz <3 ( Read more... )

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Maybe the time has gone, but the faces I will always recall. Things in this life change very slowly, if they ever change at all. The scary part being that we've all been hit with change lately, and it doesn't seem to have come slowlyl. Do you think about the day you'll leave home? I'm sure that you do. But I'll bet that what you'll remember most ( Read more... )

e.m.p.t.y.
inside

holy mother fucking bullshit i'm going to go into some serious mother fucking debt next year
so, if anyone wants to donate to the "help Yulia survive" fund, then by all means, do so.
on the other hand, that's less than most people pay for one year of college, so i shouldn't really be complaining.

how much i need to have:
monthly rent: 1/3 of $1550.00 ( Read more... )