UGH!

WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY? WHY?

WHY????

It's beginning to look a lot like christmas... sort of.

I like christmas for the most part. Yes, sometimes it sucks, and yes, sometimes it gets me completely depressed for a whole slew of reasons, but at the same time it's christmas.. and who can't help being jolly? 
Usually the day after Thanksgiving is the day where my house gets transformed into ( Read more... )

A real entry? Yes.

Recap - Thanksgiving break 06' ... What did I do? Well, not much! But it's mostly my own fault. I worked, I slept ( a lot ), I managed to clean everything, I stayed at home pretty much the whole time. It wasn't exciting at all. But! It wasn't horrible either. I needed a break from school more than anything. I was slacking off more ( Read more... )

I'm not sad today! Nothing bad has happened thus far! I hope to have a good night! I'm in a good positive mood.

I read everyone else's entries and they are all so up beat and happy and all mine are sad and angry. No wonder most people don't bother to read.

Today was unbelievably disappointing. I didn't go to the keys, or the lakehouse, or the wanna-bang-o. I didn't hang out with Alli or Chia. I sat at home by myself until I decided that if I did that any ( Read more... )

Tonight I wanted to go out. I wanted to have fun and stay up late like a normal 17 year old. Everyone is either at the blood brothers show or not picking up their phones. I really wanted to be like every other person my age.

Work at the animal house tonight sucked. No other way to put it. I was the only person to not sell a dog. It's going to sound ( Read more... )

OH WHAT FUN

1. Who were you with last night?
My dad.

2. What was the first thing you did this morning?
Once I was out of bed the first thing I did was piss.

3. What are you doing today?
I went to breakfast with Chia, because we are slackers and that's just what slackers do, then went to school, home to nap, work, now im home again.

4. Who are you with?
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It's been a day from hell. One of those days where you can't stop crying and have no idea what to do about it. One of those days where you can't think straight and wish you could just do what you know you need too, but can't.

I hate this. I hate feeling worthless and stupid. Feeling like no one understands me especially the person I need to ( Read more... )

If you have access to Brittany Mullens livejournal, read it, it's very very insightful and I love her.

Mcdreamy, my beta, died the other day. I think that is worth mentioning.

Today was my first saturday morning not having to work. I thought it would make the day go by much quicker coming in at 2 oclock.. but it really didn't. At least I got to sleep ( Read more... )

Double standards and hypocrits filled my day. And to top it off, the stress of it all left me unable to sleep... & it was raining. I love to fall asleep to the sound of rain.

Besides that.. everything was fine, maybe even better than fine...possible good?

I cleaned my beta fishes water tonight, Mcdreamy is much happier.. I can tell, no really, I ( Read more... )