tonight,
i finally figured out how
to get that drum and bass sound
with my ghetto software,
which continually proves itself
not as ghetto as i once thought.

i am happy.

The stream above ( Read more... )

i cant even start to communicate whats going on in my life ( Read more... )

.... one of those times when youre tired and just a little sad but a little thankful at the same time, one of those moods where youre really too spent to get angry at anything and you've been beaten into a silent submission by everything around you. a hindu sunburn from being too close to the sun, blind and withering, fading out in an echo that ( Read more... )

hmmm. i made chicken with almonds and a redwine balsamic au jus, paired with a spinach salad with feta stuffed olives and homemade vinaigrette for dinner. and cous cous. it very well may have been the best meal i have ever cooked. it made me miss a girl i used to cook for ( Read more... )

i hate mckinney. i am so lonely. i did kung fu and my ass burns. i am hungry, but dont really have an appetite right now. i have resorted to beating off 3 times a day because my life lacks any other form of joy except for brief work interactions. i cannot get financial aid unti fall. im going bald. i have 9 fillings and my face aches. i ( Read more... )

-the disagreement between the heart and the head ( Read more... )

i ran the forklift today, loading stuff into the back of a 50 ft. trailer. it beeps when you back up, like a school bus, giving it a certain plebian power and magnitude. "beep, i am FORKLIFT the UNSTOPPABLE METAL JUGGERNAUT .... beep ( Read more... )

feels so good to hit a bowl... it lets me feel again ( Read more... )

i was sore last night so i ran 3 miles. i feel fine today, but i have been subsisting on about 5 hours of rocky sleep for the past three days. it wears on your mind if you let it ( Read more... )