I miss [el] steph---oooooo

I feel very fucked off with Three at the moment ( Read more... )

 I'm struggling to hold down food ( Read more... )

last night I took sleeping pills.

It was so good to have some decent sleep.

I hope that I dont become addicted to them.

 I just can't stop binging on rice bubbles.

It feels as though my head isn't even attached to my body.

 I don't know what to do...

My mum wants me to take 2 weeks off work

My GP wants me to take at least a week off

so she gave me a certificate for a day.

I don't want to not go to work.

a) i'll have no money (and my consultation cost $142... just for today)

b) who am I if i don't work?? I'll have nothing to do.

121 is such an ugly number on me.

I really don't expect anyone to understand this

but i feel terrible guilty because I just ate a sandwich

i broke my "no food after 7pm" rule.

but i was sitting down watching desperate housewives

and ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT was a sandwich.

and i gave in.
 

my food allergy is still undiagnosed.

i'm not allergic to:

*nuts
*cereals
*seafood
*common food staples ie. rice, wheat, soybeans, milk, egg whites, bakers yeast

i'm so frustrated.

my base allergy test result went from 556 to 599. (normal person result 1.5 - 100) so i'm off to an allergist.

to other news, im going off the Pill. i've been on for over a ( Read more... )