my mind is racing. i can't avoid these thoughts. i think it has snuck up on me again. that thing that is always lurking in the background. i don't know if i'm completely mad. it's either time to give in and discover what's really happening. or to admit insanity and get some help. i've been trying to blow this off as my crazy mind for years. but ( Read more... )

why are things so stupid

why is my laptop going so fucking slowly

sucks!

i don't think i've ever asked a guy out b4. i think i just found out why.

that totally hurt.

but i guess that's what i get for hesitating. or putting my neck on the line. i'm not sure which right now.

man, i feel like shit.

it's time to stop waiting for things in my life to make sense and embrace the constant state of confusion.

ps. hi sarah i'm still here, and probably always will b, coz i'm a loser like that. hahaha

pps. boy are just plane weird!

OMG! I think i'm having MASSIVE sugar withdrawals!

I think I've changed.. a lot

I was too comfortable. it was too easy. now, for reasons completely out of anyone's control, it has been taken away. i hate it. but i know i needed it.

this sucks! But I know it's right. Sadly, I will admit it.

Don't you just hate that!?.... I sure do.

After all this time i still feel like something is missing ( Read more... )

the dream says: NO!!!!!

i'm over frankston. i hated it before and i hate it more now. i feel so isolated ( Read more... )