Diet talk
It's time to get honest with myself about my weight.
Let me start by saying I know a lot of you hate talk about needing to lose weight, so that's why I created the cut to spare some of you. :o) I am not one of those girls who has un-healthy or un-realistic goals for myself. I am currently at my highest possible weight to still be in the "healthy" BMI. My range is 105-140. My goal is to be somewhere between 115-125, realizing that I would probably only be able to maintain 125 over the long run. I'm also trying not to complain. I wish I was tall and had a fast metabolism, but I have accepted the body I've been given and just want to treat it right and feel confident with it.
Here's the history, though. I have always struggled with my weight. I was always thin (115-125 pounds) while living at home until I was 18, without really thinking about it. My mom was an amazing cook, but was really smart about portions and I was a runner, so it kept me relatively lean. My freshman year of college, I came home 10 pounds heavier and EVERYBODY noticed. :( I started going on "power-walks" with my mom every night and my crazy work schedule that summer made it easy to lose the weight. After that, my weight stayed steady with a normal diet and basically no exericise (except an occasional trip to the gym and walking to class every day) throughout the rest of college. I put on 15 pounds over the 2 years I lived in Florida (for a total of 140) leading up to our wedding, and was really upset with how I looked in my wedding photos. Granted, I love our professional photos, but the weight made my chest (as well as my waistline and arms) practically *explode* and it was just embarrassing. My weight continued to balloon until I reached my highest weight of 152 in January of 2007. From there, I did a total turn around on my diet and lifestyle. I lost 17 pounds by June 2007, gained 10 of that back between July-August (due to change in diet and less exercise), and finally lost 23 pounds between August-December 2008 and reached my "adult" low of 122 pounds.
Now, just 4 months later, I have gained 18 pounds back. I've been eating like crap, and my body is one of those that holds on to every little thing. I can gain 2 pounds in a day, but it'll take me at least a week to lose 2 pounds. :o( I went back to healthy eating and started building up my exercise a little last week and lost 3.5 pounds. Then, I ate one meal thing off my diet on Friday (2 slices of pizza), and gained almost all of it back. :o( It's time for me to start getting serious about being healthy again. I don't feel as bad (sore, etc.) as I did at 152, but I hate seeing myself in photos and I hate trying clothes on. My chest and belly, especially, make it so difficult to find attractive shirts. I need to get down to a comfortable weight, start running again, and drinking more water.
That being said, I'm back onto the healthy track starting today and I plan to stick with it. I've had 9 glasses of water, 5 small meals (~1200 calories), lots of lean protein and fiber. I did my abs and arms this morning, and will be leaving for a short run and will do my full arm circuit and abs when I get back. I have a wedding coming up in 4 weeks and then there's our Mexico trip in July and I'd love to have bikini pictures to share with you allso I need to get my shit together...
Here's stats, so I can keep my thoughts together:
Starting weight: 142
Current weight: 140.5
Daily caloric intake: Between 1200-1500
Daily workout: 10 minute abs, 10 minute arms, short run (1.5-4.5 miles), full arm circuit, abs on the ball (don't know the name for that) :o)