Headspaces are stupid and my Tumblr crashes my internet.

[angel_lova]

I don’t even know how to explain my headspace right now. Sean has cancer. Fucking cancer. That’s just... he’s one of the nicest guys in the world, and he’s dealing with that?! It just doesn’t seem fair. It’s not right, it’s not fair and it makes me want to scream when I think about it too hard. Getting cancer is like one of my worst nightmares and

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[catherine1234]

You know that I love you to pieces and absolutely have your back, and we've talked about most of this. And I'm really sorry that you're struggling with Jamie's wedding, and know that I honestly understand that being told you're better off without someone doesn't help.
But Cat told people because she was so damn excited. And yes, doctors tell you to keep it quiet but it's not that easy. I have a manager at work who told people at 8 weeks and now she's 25 weeks and happy as anything. People will still announce it earlier, I just think that it's heartbreaking enough and doesn't have anything to do with whether people know or not. Sorry, this new just hit me particularly hard this week.
I love you <3, stay strong.

[angel_lova]

Okay, I totally didn't explain the Cat thing right. Gimme like an hour and I'll try again.

[angel_lova]

Okay, so. The Cat thing. Please please please don't get me wrong. I feel awful for her having lost her baby. It's the kind of thing that haunts my nightmares, having a miscarriage. My point was not that she deserves it because she put it up on Facebook too early (which reading it back is what it sounds like) but that she's potentially made it 20x harder on herself by having to tell all of her Facebook who two weeks ago were so stupidly excited for her. I get that it's hard to keep all that excitement in, but there is a reason that the doctor tells you to wait. This is exactly why. I can't even imagine going through this on my own, let alone everyone remind me by telling me how sorry they are every 5 minutes? I don't think I would be able to cope with that.

[catherine1234]

No I know, I know you didn't mean it like that. I just think it's incredibly hard to understand unless you're in someone's position. When my manager announced it her whole reasoning was that if something went wrong at least she wouldn't go through it alone. I don't know, I guess I'm just overly protective. I get you though.