For those of you who do not knowme, I am a huge animal lover. At one point, I had 2 cats and 2 dogs. We never have given up an animal for any reason ever. Well, last Nov. my mother had to move and could not have pets, so we took in my brothers cat whom was 18 years old. Because he was raised with no other animals his whole life, he did not take ( Read more... )

We had a friend in need. We were going to take her 3 yr old son in as a foster child. We went to court today so she could get him back and she had been told that if she gave him up that within 30 days if she changed her mind she could get him back. Today she was told that wasn't possible. She is good mother, not on drugs or anything, she just ( Read more... )

I continuously find myself driving the 38 miles to my sister-in-laws house over and over again. And even though her house is extremely loud and the kids are hellians, I keep going. I keep going because I am lonely. I am a stay at home mom and I do not work so I can not go out to "make friends." I speak cordially to the neighbor ladies, but they ( Read more... )

So I had a very new and interesting experience this weekend ( Read more... )

Tomorrow is Logans 6 week check up even though he is 7 weeks. I have so many questions. Like about his eyes and his hearing and his breathing...sigh.

The other night we almost had to rush him to the ER b/c we thought he was having an athsma attack...We aren't sure if he is hearing correctly...double sigh.

Wish me luck!

Typos and/or scattered thoughts please forgive. I have a 3 yr old chattering in my ear and an infant attached to my breast and only one hand to type with and 1/2 a brain to think with ( Read more... )

"Since all things are naked, clear, and free from obscurations
there is nothing to attain or realize.
The everyday practice
is simply to develop a complete openness
to all people, situations, and emotions
without ever withdrawing
or centralizing onto oneself."

~Chogyam Trungpa

Close your eyes...

What do you hear?
Birds, Flys, Bees, Children Laughing

What do you feel?
Plastic, a soft breeze, intense heat of the sun, grease on my skin

What do you smell?
Grass, Flowers, Dog Poop, Chlorine

What do you taste?
Stale cigarretts, ice tea

I never knew heaven could be found on a floating chaise lounge in a 4ft. pool of water

So I think I have depression. Not just a small case, but the actual disease, disorder whatever you want to call it. I am seeing the Dr on wed and fri. next week and they want me on Zoloft ( Read more... )

A father carries pictures where his money used to be.
-Authur Unknown

My father used to play with my brother and me in the yard. Mother would come out and say, "You're tearing up the grass."
"We're not raising grass," Dad would reply. "We're raising boys."
-Harmon Killebrew