baby blues

[angela_hood]

sometimes i curl into a ball in bed or in the bathroom and just cry.
i cry so hard i cough.
it hurts.
i will be turning 25 this year. ever since i was a little girl ive wanted a child by 25.
this birthday will be VERY hard for me.
it hurts.
i feel like im alone in feeling like this.
like no one understands me.
it hurts.

*goes to bed to cry*

Comments

[alans_beloved]

You may want to think about looking at life in a new way. Life rarely pans out the way we imagined it as little girls. What exactly did we know or understand about life/the world then? Not everything is as easy as it is in our dreams. Life is hard. You know that. I know that that is not comforting, but it is the truth. The truth is supposed to free us, right? It frees us to live in reality. Not be deceived by people/things/ideas that stand in the way. The interesting thing about life is is that it is unpredictable. Enjoy the journey - even though it's not following *your* plan. There may be a bigger plan happening. Things happen when they're supposed to. There's no need to stress yourself or your spouse out about it. It's perfectly valid to feel disappointment that things aren't going along your idea of what life should be like, but it would be a shame to let that emotion become the focus, an obsession, and miss out on what is happening in you life at this very moment. There is something to be learned everyday about