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angelbear_oh

The hardest decisions

Jul 15, 2010 06:32

I don't know how to tell you about this, or even if I should tell you.

I have your basic American male fear of failure. I would sooner eat aluminum siding than tell you in this LiveJournal of how I have failed miserably. I want to keep my mouth shut. Nobody has to know about this. Nobody wants to know. It would pollute Our Internet to tell of it.

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apartment, internet, automobile

Comments 9

thrashbear July 15 2010, 10:38:48 UTC

FWIW, I, and many people who read this, can empathize with your situation. It's frustrating to bust your hump at what few opportunities present themselves, yet it's still not enough to maintain even the basic necessities of life.

I can offer no real assistance, but you are in my thoughts.

gafennec July 15 2010, 13:47:36 UTC

*HUGS* You're in my thoughts and prayers, buddy.

crssafox July 15 2010, 13:49:41 UTC

*hugs* I'm sorry to hear things haven't lined up for you.

The hardest part is to know that, where ever you are and where ever you end up, is exactly where God needs you to be. My own mom was facing homelessness a few years ago, but at the last minute something managed to work itself out. And, like you say, it's easy enough to find a roof over your head; a vehicle is extremely important to assist in reliability for potential jobs.

Hang in there, know that we are thinking of you and praying for you, and keep us updated if/when you can. Remember that the Lord is faithful, and that He will provide what you need, when you need it.

jim_ghote July 15 2010, 17:10:54 UTC

All I can do at this point is pray to the Lord that a solution to this situation comes quickly.

jarrellwoods July 15 2010, 22:49:42 UTC

*sigh* It is so incredibly hard out there right now. You have not failed. I don't even know all of the particulars, but I'm pretty sure of that fact. I was looking in 3 States for jobs and coming up empty. This type of thing has never happened in our lifetimes.

Oh, I'll take that back - there was one place who would take me on part time making 7 dollars less per hour than the job I was laid off from - the place was 52 miles from home. Once you figure the gas used, my paltry check from unemployment was actually better than working and driving that far. This was the only job offer out of countless places I talked to.

The one I have now is an absolute miracle, but most people think I'm nuts for driving 90 miles one way to get to it. I'm killing my only car, but it's what I have to do to keep things together. Between apartment and car would be a tough decision indeed, but you probably did right by still having your mobility, and provides a little shelter too.

You'll get through this. Not your fault. God's with you.

angelbear_oh July 15 2010, 23:13:57 UTC

One of the great thing about journals of any sort is the wisdom you can impart to yourself at some future date. This blog post in Wordpress, titled "Led Through Uncertainty", seems to speak to my situation. I believe I'm being either tested or being prepared to represent Him to somebody. When I think about that possibility, the situation doesn't hurt quite as much.