Wow. it's amazing to think how much life has changed. I got married.. it was the most beautiful day a person could ask for. I woke up perfectly calm excited to marry Ian. Today is 3 months from that day. We've struggled.. and so much has changed but I love him more than anything in this world. We've moved 3000 kms from our home town and our ( Read more... )

I am getting married in 46 days. 46 DAYS! sometimes I'm excited, sometimes I'm terrified. We still have a lot left to do. We need to get a room booked for the wedding night. Figure out if we're camping or renting a camper. I'm scared it's going to rain :( Ian doesn't help with many details... but he's living an hour away an working full time. I'm ( Read more... )

I have my wedding dress! I love it soo much. Now we only need to get posted and know where we're going to be to make sure our date is ok. I'm so excited to get married. when Ian gets back from kingston at the end of the month we're going to pick up my engagement ring :D! oh i miss my boy..

heh. looking over old entries from when i was with murray..it's funny that i only posted the good stuff..and i always went on about how in love we were and how we connected..like i was trying to convince myself ( Read more... )

I hate that sometimes i think of you and i realize i miss you so much i can't breathe ( Read more... )

3 days and it'll be a year. I found out what Ian got me for our anniversary...and it's not the ring :( I'm really sad. Like unreasonably sad. I don't even care about the ring.. i just want the commitment. I'm just kinda scared he doesn't want to be with me anymore. And I'm also disappointed because it's a pair of earrings that look like an old ( Read more... )

Ian came home this weekend and told me he's leaving for afganistan in February. I don't even know what to think right now. He never even talked about it with me..all he asked was "Will you still be here for me when I come back" I told him I would..but how do I know that I will be? I mean, what if I can't handle the stress. I mean, I can't really ( Read more... )

So uh..piercing your tongue isn't the best idea when you haven't eaten for most of the day.

I'm so sick of everything. I'm sick of me and Ian..I think. My mother, school, friends. Just everything ( Read more... )

*sigh* My life is changing so fast. I don't even know where to begin. My head is spinning. I've been so sick. I don't deal well with change, which causes stress which then causes me to throw up constantly and get depressed ( Read more... )