Regrets.
I was talking with Hayden last night on FB chat. I'd been speaking with Jelva about the dramas at Coles with all the young ones find their relationships falling apart. Some advise she had given to one of the young ladies was "Act like its no big deal, and maybe he'll realise what he's lost" or something along those lines. So, I put the question to Hayden if this was true, as he was the only male online at the time and I wanted a guys opinion. He said that in his experience its not really a short term thing, more a case of "Oh hell what have I lost" several years later. I admited that I could relate to that a little, to which I'm sure he smirked and said "Pretty sucky, isn't it?" -_- You think? As I said to him, he managed to pack all that regret into one pretty crap day, I've managed to drag this out for about 3 weeks so far! Grr. Don't know which would be better, 1 day of intense self loathing and then you're over it and can move on, or several weeks of minor self loathing but no interest in getting past it and moving on. I don't want to move on. I quite like the way he feels and I don't want to start searching for that again, especially since I have a tendancy to settle for less than that for the sake of something, anything.
I think Hayden may be enjoying my suffering just a little. -_-
xxoo