It has been awhile since I have updated and boy life just keeps getting more interesting as I go. I believe I might be more than slightly stupid for continuing this ride that I am on right now. I believe I am just being dragged along but everytime I fall off, I get right back on. Must be I am not willing to give up yet. Part of me feels I should ( Read more... )

I hate the waiting and wondering what the decision will be. It eats away at me. I want to be able to be happy and know it is ok. I know the feelings are there, but yet there is some fear. You have to take baby steps before huge leaps; you can only live day by day. You can't plan the future because it sometimes doesn't turn out that way. I have ( Read more... )

So this weekend was something out of a nightmare. You never imagine having to tell yourself you are sorry. As many times as I told myself I wouldn't allow myself to be hurt again, somehow I was able to put myself in the situation where I am. I guess I have learned that no matter how much you try to put a protective barrier around your heart, ( Read more... )

I wish sometimes God would just look at me and say this is what you are meant to do with the rest of your life, so do it. I think that would be so much easier than dealing with the stress and disappointments of life while I am trying to find my way. I always thought I had my life pretty much set. I was going to graduate college, go to med school, ( Read more... )

I love to know where people get off making other people's lives miserable. Today I have learned how immature people can be and the reason why I am not going to live my whole life in Crawfordsville. All Crawfordsville is is a rumor bin; everyone has to know everyone else's business. No one can leave well enough alone. It pisses me off when people ( Read more... )

So this is my first livejournal entry ever...yay for me!! I thought I would tell all about my life on here like everybody else. It is so much fun ( Read more... )