Do you ever...

[angelfallentear]

Get mad at yourself b/c you realize how much you've missed with your friends?

How you kind of fell off the face of the planet to some people and were replaced in others' lives?

That's how it feels somehow.

I"m just a bit peeved when it comes to certain circumstances.

I'll be ok.

Don't worry.

*sigh*

good night

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[promesasdebella]

Yes, yes and yes.

I have one real life friend that I have contact with on a regular basis. I thank God for her almost every day. But our primary contact is through email and we see each other maybe once a month.

My once best friend and I have drifted so far apart that I don't think we'll ever come back together again. I've been feeling this coming for quite a long time and only recently have I seen it actually come to fruition. It is kind of sad.

Otherwise, it is John. Somehow that just does not seem to be enough; even though he feels completely that I am enough for him. Makes me feel kind of guilty in a way.

There are many friends from my past life, before John, that I lost in the divorce from my ex. And those that I didn't lose that way just sort of fell by the wayside eventually because they were still too connected to the others.

It feels lonely sometimes.

[gilraenfelagund]

I'm sorry you feel left out...I can only speak for myself (obviously) but it's just damn hard for me to communicate over the phone. It's difficult enough in person!
I know I should write more in my LJ...it's pretty much how everyone knows what's going on in my life nowadays. But...honestly, I just got tired of writing in it. It always seemed that I was only writing to complain about something in my life, and it was almost always the same damn things. And I still have those things in my life, so I know that if I started writing again, I'd just go back to complaining. *Shrug*
Anyway, I'm sorry if you feel bad...and I'm sorry I haven't called more and talked to you more...etc. etc. etc....

[angelfallentear]

LOL...

complaining is just what we do. And you know that I'd rather try to help my friends than concentrate on myself.

It wasn't you directly...but sometimes I just...feel shut off and I hate it. That's all. I have friends down here but they're mostly through Ste...and hanging out with them...they're into the bar scene that I've been over for like...years now. I hardly ever see or talk to Jo anymore and I miss you all something aweful. Doesn't help that I've only really had three visitors, you being the only one from that group of friends.

Don't worry too much...I'm a bit emotional for reasons...lol but it amplifies when I feel sad.

I'll call you sometime soon.

<3 ya lady:)